Kristen was born on May 26, 1967 in New York. Early on, she displayed an obvious musical talent, playing many instruments and developing into a talented writer. After graduating from high school in 1985, she briefly attended Boston College before receiving a scholarhsip to study in Holland. After returning to the U.S. she relocated to Minnesota attended the University of Minnesota, she was a dedicated activist involved in many things, one of which was counseling women who were victims of rape and pushing to get better security at the University where she studied classical piano and cello. After “graduating herself”, Pfaff taught herself to play bass guitar & decided to pursue a career in music. She soon formed a trio called Janitor Joe, with herself on bass/vocals, Joachim Breuer on vocals/guitar and drummer Matt Entsminger.

The band’s first single, Hmong, was released on the nascent OXO records imprint in 1992,^[1] and popular local label Amphetamine Reptile Records picked up the band later that year, releasing the Bullethead single on picture disc, and following up in 1993 with theBoyfriend 7-inch and the debut album Big Metal Birds. One Janitor Joe track, Under The Knife, can also be found on an OXO records 4-track EP, released in 1993. ”Big Metal Birds” is one of the best kept secrets in rock music history, and is on par with Nirvana’s “In Utero”, Sublime’s “40oz. to Freedom” and other classic 90’s albums.
  
Janitor Joe were becoming a staple of the Minneapolis sound, influenced by the Pacific Northwest’s early grunge sound and by the sharper, faster DC post-hardcore scene, as well as the stop-start distortion of the Butthole Surfers, Shellac and others on the Touch and Go label. Pfaff’s playing style was central to Janitor Joe’s relentless assault both live and on record, and she and Breuer both contributed songs to Big Metal Birds: “Both operate within easy reach of the line separating punishment and reward: Pfaff’s contributions (the surly “Boys in Blue”) tend to be slightly more spacious, while Breuer’s (“One Eye,” for instance) stipulate that drummer Matt Entsminger maintain perpetual motion”, wrote David Sprague of Trouser Press. 
 
The growing Minneapolis scene was beginning to attract music press attention in 1993. Amphetamine Reptile released a tour single,Stinker, and Janitor Joe began to tour nationally. It was on one such tour in California that year that Pfaff was scouted by Eric Erlandson and Courtney Love of Hole, who were at the time looking for a new bassist. Love invited Pfaff to play with Hole; Pfaff declined and returned to Minneapolis, but Erlandson and Love continued to pursue her.
 
Pfaff, initially reluctant to leave Minneapolis and join Hole, reconsidered after advice from her father, Norman: “From a professional point of view, there was no decision”, he later told Seattle Weekly, “because they’re already on Geffen Records and already have this huge following in England… if you’re wanting to move up the ladder, that’s the way to go.” Following international critical acclaim for their first, independent album, Pretty On The Inside, Hole had generated a great deal of major-label interest, eventually signing an eight-album deal with Geffen Records for a reported $3 million. Kristen was interested in making good music, while certain members of Hole seemed more interested in making outrageous headlines. In the end, however, Kristen decided to join Hole, at least for the recording of their next album. 
 
In 1993, Pfaff moved to Seattle, Washington, to work with the other members of Hole on Live Through This, the major-label follow-up to Pretty On The Inside. The band’s new line-up – Love, Erlandson, Pfaff and Patty Schemel on drums – entered the studio in early 1993 to begin rehearsals. “That’s when we took off,” Eric Erlandson said of Pfaff joining. “All of a sudden we became a real band.”  

She got an apartment in Seattle’s Capitol Hill area, which at the time had more heroin addicts per square foot than almost any other area in the United States. Whether or not Kristen had tried hard drugs before she moved to Seattle isn’t clear but it is a fact that after she moved to Seattle drugs started to become a problem for her, though she had a bit of help in that department. It is a known fact that other members of Hole were heroin users, and it has been said that they encouraged Kristen’s drug use, providing her with as much heroin and supplies as she needed. In short, Courtney used heroin as a way to control Kristen just like she did with Kurt. Excuses are not being made for her, but she can’t stick up for herself now and there sure aren’t many others doing it.

 Of course Kristen had a mind of her own, but she was definitely not the “lost cause” she was portrayed as after her death. Pfaff’s time in Seattle was a creatively rich period, and she formed close friendships with Eric Erlandson, and Kurt Cobain. While working on the platinum selling album Live Through This, Pfaff and Erlandson dated, and stayed together for most of 1993, remaining close even after splitting up. All was not well, however; while living in Washington’s ‘heroin capital’, Pfaff developed a problem with drug use. “Everybody was doing it. Everyone, everyone. All our friends were junkies. It was ridiculous. Everybody in this town did dope”, said Love of this period in the Seattle music scene. By most accounts, Pfaff’s own drug use was relatively moderate: “Kristen…dabbled in drugs before she was in our band, in Minneapolis, but it was very light”, Erlandson told Craig Marks of Spin. “She moved to Seattle and felt disconnected from everything, and she made friends, drug connections, which I told her not to do. The only way you can survive in this town is if you don’t make those connections.”

After returning from Atlanta where Hole recorded their new album “Live Through This” in 1993, Kristen started to make efforts to stop using heroin. Her relationship with Courtney Love wasn’t exactly a pleasant one, since her and Courtney were vastly different people. There were many different instances where Kristen expressed a concern, to put it lightly, of Courtney’s mentality and motives. It is known however that Kurt Cobain, Love’s husband, and Kristen were quite fond of each other. They both were very musically gifted and intelligent people and had quite a lot in common both musically and as human beings. Kurt even referred to her as a “beautiful soul” at one point. 
 
Pfaff entered rehab for heroin addiction in the winter of 1993, and took a sabbatical from Hole in spring 1994, to tour with Janitor Joe. “She went on tour… and when she came back from that, she was clean”, says Erlandson. Soon after her return, her friend Kurt Cobain died in April 1994. The murder of Kurt Cobain had a tremendous effect on Kristen, as she was quoted in a Minneapolis article saying Kurt “broke her heart”. She didn’t elaborate. According to friends and family by this time Kristen had already quit using heroin and was preparing to rejoin her old band Janitor Joe for a European tour. She had quickly tired of the shallow meaningless life of drugs she had endured in Seattle, and had decided that was not the life for her. In the wake of Cobain’s death, Pfaff decided to leave Hole and Seattle, and return to Minneapolis to rejoin Janitor Joe permanently leaving Hole, which certain members of Hole did not react well to, as Kristen had played a major role on their new album and her musicianship was largely credited as a big reason the album sounded so good. Following the conclusion of Janitor Joe’s European tour, Kristen returned to Seattle to pack up the rest of her things and return to Minneapolis. And then something happened…

On the evening of Wednesday June 15, 1994 Around 9:30am Kristen had finished up packing and was at her Capitol Hill apartment with friend Paul Erickson of the band Hammerhead. who would be joining her for the journey to Minneapolis the following morning. Erickson volunteered to spend the night outside in the U-Haul to guard it from thieves. As he was sitting in the U-Haul he saw Eric Erlandson, Kristen’s former bandmate, enter the apartment at roughly 8PM and leave about a half an hour later. At around 9-9:30PM Erickson said he entered the apartment and Kristen was in the bathroom and could be heard snoring through the door, it was common of Kristen to fall asleep as she relaxed in the tub, So Paul returned to the U-Haul and went to sleep. The next morning he returned to the apartment, and found the bathroom door still locked. He kicked in the door and found Kristen dead in the bathtub. At the age of 27, Kristen Pfaff had died of what appeared to be an accidental heroin overdose. On the floor there was a bag containing syringes and drug paraphernalia. Pfaff’s death was attributed to “acute opiate intoxication,” and ruled accidental by Hartshone (same KCME as Kurt) & Cameron (Lead Officer with the Seattle Police, again same as Kurt)
 
Below is a list of reasons that the prospect of an accidental overdose is unlikely:  
1. Kristen was about the leave Courtney permanently when she was found dead (like Kurt). 
2. The last person to see Kristen alive was Eric Erlandson, who knows why or by whom he was sent to see her? 
3. She had spoken to friends in Minneapolis the evening of her death and was very excited to be leaving Seattle. 
4. Her autopsy was performed by the same doctor who performed the autopsy on Cobain, and was a close friend of Courtney’s. 
5. Members of Hole have changed their stories many times in the press regarding the circumstances of Kristen’s death. 
6. None of the members of Hole, save for Patty Schemel, have ever expressed sincere sorrow or loss over Kristen’s death. As her father said, “It could have been that Kristen died or someone missed a bus.” 
7. Kristen was NOT a member of Hole at the time of her death, despite reports in the media and statements from Geffen records that stated otherwise. 
8. Kristen had feared some kind of consequence as a result of her decision to leave; “Courtney’s scary. If I take a hike, she’ll make me look bad or do something to make my life miserable.” 

A local Minneapolis radio station, University of Minnesota’s KUOM, had started a yearly $1,000 Memorial Scholarship in her name. The award is earmarked for “individuals active in the arts in the pursuit of their educational goals.” Portions from the proceeds of Hole’s album sales have gone to the Kristen Pfaff Memorial Fund.

On October 20, 1994, Janet Pfaff, Kristen’s mother, accepted induction on her daughter’s behalf into the Buffalo Music Hall of Fame. “I’m proud to accept this award for Kristen and I know she would be happy to receive it,” Mrs. Pfaff said. “It’s sad because Kristen wasn’t here herself to enjoy the moment. You work so hard in the business to make it at the national level, and that’s what Kristen did. I just wish she was here to enjoy it, and see how her hometown feels about her” 


“I was a fan of rock since I was a teen-ager, But it didn’t really occur to me to play it until I started seeing some female sort of role models on the alternative scene … I was playing classical music my whole life. It was dainty, and that’s what girls do.” - Kristen Pfaff

“Courtney’s scary. If I take a hike, she’ll make me look bad or do something to make my life miserable.  As long as she has three puppets who agree that she is the star, there are no problems. At first she’s really nice to you to your face, but if you do something that she doesn’t agree with, she’ll do something behind your back to make you look really bad.” - Kristen on Courtney

“I care a lot about you but you’re such a low life, Your whole life is a fake. Everything. The people you hang with, the drug dealers, Courtney…even your guitar playing. You’re so good at fooling the crowd.”
- Kristen to Eric Erlandson.

 

Quotes about Kristen 
“She’s a fucking talented musician, she’s also a beautiful soul. I think she’s so beautiful, but if I ever told her that, and Courtney found out, it would be hell.”  - Kurt talking about Kristen to Dylan Carlson 

“You fuck my guitar player, constantly make eyes at my husband and now you’re telling me how to sing. Just don’t fuck with me because you’ll regret it forever.”
- Courtney to Kristen 

“Don’t fuck with her, just bite your tongue when Courtney does something stupid or insults you. That’s what I do. Courtney has the power to make us a lot of cash.
- Eric Erlandson to Kristen 
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FOR MORE ABOUT KRISTEN PLEASE VISIT
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kristen_Pfaff
http://www.justiceforkurt.com/kristen_pfaff/last_days.shtml

http://www.justiceforkurt.com/kristen_pfaff/news_reports.shtml 

http://www.justiceforkurt.com/kristen_pfaff/end.shtml Kristen Marie Pfaff May 26, 1967 – June 16, 1994 Aged 27 

Kurt Cobain’s music and the passion he put into it has been a great influence on many over the years. that passion translates over to the research many have done & have come to the conclusion that Kurt Cobain didn’t choose to die or have any control over what happened to him in the end. Many believe that his death needs to be re-investigated, and his murderer(s) brought to justice, so that he & his legacy after eighteen years can finally rest in peace. 

3 things you should know 

1. This is not a simple case of “suicide”
2. The Private Investigator hired by Courtney Love to find her husband firmly believes she is responsible for his death, & has a strong foundation to stand on 
3. Somebody came forward following his death stating that Courtney offered him money to kill Kurt Cobain, and then he also died mysteriously shortly afterwards. he’s not the only close death close to that occurred

The main participants in the case

Kurt Cobain, the founder and driving force behind Nirvana, has been described many times as being suicidal at the time of his death. However, there are many sources who believe this is not the case.

These sources (who knew him well) claim that he was the happiest he had been in a long time. Much of this seemed to be due to his decision to leave both the music business and his unhappy marriage behind.

He had got to the point in his career where he didn’t need to tour endlessly, or constantly promote his work. He’d already made his millions. Kurt appeared now to want nothing more than to spend time with his baby daughter Frances Bean, who was the most important thing in his life. 

Courtney Love, his wife

Courtney Love married Kurt Cobain in February 1992, when she was already pregnant with Frances Bean. There has been speculation that the pregnancy was the main reason for Kurt to get married, and that Courtney was simply marrying for money. However, at this time (1992) , they did appear to be very much in love. 
Courtney’s band Hole had achieved some modest success, although nowhere near on the scale of Nirvana. She used Kurt’s influence to gain publicity for Hole before & LONG after his death (even to this day Hole Members are using Kurt’s name for their own personal gain *Cough Cough* Letters to Kurt?) 

The pursuit of wealth was always more important to Courtney. It is widely believed that she instigated a rift between Kurt and the rest of the band by insisting that he should have a greater share of the royalties, and then is said to have “gone ballistic” when he turned down an offer to headline the Lollapalooza Festival. 

on top of that bearing in mind that Kurt and Courtney had a pre-nuptial agreement, and that he was planning to leave her and the music business, how far would she go to stop him and hang on to the money? what was her relationship like with the Seattle Police? 

Michael “Cali” DeWitt

Michael “Cali” DeWitt was the couple’s nanny at the time of Kurt’s death, Long Time friend of Courtney’s but entered Kurt’s in ‘93 and allegedly an ex boyfriend of Courtney (but who isn’t). 

He was with them during the Rome Incident (see below), and also staying at their home during the last few days of Kurt’s life. 

Courtney left him behind when she went to Los Angeles to promote her new album. Is possible he was at the house when Kurt died, although this has not been proved probably due to the case being closed so fast. 

Tom Grant

Tom Grant is the private detective hired by Courtney Love to find her husband when he absconded from rehab days before his death.
During his investigation, he came across many inconsistancies with Courtney’s story, and even once Kurt’s body was found he continued to investigate. However, by this point he was treating Courtney as his prime suspect in the case with good reason 

QUICK TIMELINE. Apr 3rd Tom was hired, Apr 4th Courtney files a missing persons report pretending to be victims mother. TOD (Time of death) Apr. 05th margin of error of “more than 24 hours,”  April 8th victim was found 

Shortly before Kurt was found, he searched the house with Kurt’s best friend Dylan Carlson. At this time, he didn’t even see the greenhouse, and Dylan (who knew the house) didn’t mention it.
After Kurt died, Rosemary Carroll told Tom Grant that she overheard Courtney’s side of a telephone conversation to Dylan, when he was telling her they were going to search the house. Rosemary distinctly remembers Courtney telling Dylan to check the greenhouse. Dylan denies this. 

& thankfully Tom Grant’s investigation is ongoing. 1994 - cobaincase.com Never Before heard recordings updated MAY 2012

Dylan Carlson 

Dylan Carlson was Kurt’s best friend, and drug dealer to both Kurt and Courtney. It was Dylan that bought the gun which ended Kurt’s life, although Dylan is adamant that Kurt was not suicidal. He claims that Kurt had told him he wanted a gun because he was scared of intruders, and didn’t want to buy it in his name because he thought it would be confiscated by the police. (AGAIN) This was because Courtney had called them not long before, saying that he had locked himself in the bathroom with a gun, and was suicidal & before that during a domestic altercation with Courtney (click here for Carlson’s interview about Kurt’s death)

WAS DYLAN CARLSON INVOLVED IN KURT’S DEATH?

 Rosemary Carroll
 

Rosemary Carroll was Kurt and Courtney’s lawyer. She is convinced that Kurt was happy and making plans for the future. She is certain that he was not suicidal.

Just weeks before Kurt died, Rosemary says that Kurt phoned her to ask her to change his will, and take Courtney’s name out of it. She also knew that Kurt was planning to leave the band. At around the same time, Rosemary claims that Courtney called asking her to find the meanest, most vicious divorce lawyer she could find. She also asked if there was any way to void the pre-nuptial agreement. Rosemary’s feelings is well documented in Tom Grant’s Audio files about her suspicions  However, she is now reluctant to publicly state her concerns about the case, preumably for fear of how Courtney would react.

El Duce and Alan Wrench

There is much speculation that Courtney hired someone to kill her husband. Eldon Hoke (a.k.a.) El Duce came forward after Kurt’s death, claiming that she had tried to hire him to do this. He refused the offer. He even passed a polygraph with the probability of deception less then .01  

El Duce was then interviewed for the BBC television documentary Kurt and Courtney (click here for the interview). He named a man called Alan, who he believed had taken on the job. This is widely believed to be Alan Wrench, who has also since been interviewed on camera. Although, he did not categorically admit or deny the accusation, he seemed intent on hinting that he may be responsible. Whether true or not, he appeared to enjoy the idea that the public would believe he was guilty, but that no one would be able to prove it.  

A matter of days after El Duce’s taped interview, he also died in mysterious circumstances. 

Leland Cobain

This is Kurt Cobain’s grandfather. He & his lovely wife Iris (God Rest Her Soul) is also convinced that Kurt was not planning to commit suicide, and believes Courtney responsible.

He has been interviewed and said that Kurt was planning a fishing trip with him, although Kurt died before the time they had arranged to go. 
Click here for an interview with Leland Cobain 

Kristen Pfaff

Kristen Pfaff was a member of Courtney Love’s band Hole. There has been speculation that Courtney believed Kurt and Kristen were having an affair, although this has never been proved.

Shortly after Kurt’s death Kristen decided to leave Courtney and the band behind. She packed her belongings to return to her parents house. However, when her brother arrived to drive her there, she was found dead in the bath from an overdose of heroin.

Again, this was labelled a suicide, although she was in fact doing exactly the same as Kurt. That is, planning for her future, and escaping from Courtney. To me there seems to be far more to this than mere coincidence. (Blog entitled ‘Justice For Kristen’ will be shortly behind this one)

Did Kurt Cobain really commit suicide, or is his killer still out there?

 

On 8th April 1994, Nirvana’s front man Kurt Cobain was found dead in the “greenhouse”, (the room above the garage) at his home in Seattle Washington, from an apparently self inflicted shotgun wound to his head. This was quickly dismissed as suicide, however there is far more to this than meets the eye.

In addition to the shot that killed him, there was also the fact that there was a massive dose of heroin/ morphine in his system. In fact there was three times the lethal amount. Experts have stated that this amount would probably have incapacitated him in seconds, and killed him in a matter of minutes.

However, due to the fact that his sleeves had been rolled back down, and all of the drug paraphernalia had been tidied away, I am left with a couple of important questions. Firstly, in the few seconds Kurt had before the full effects of the heroin overwhelmed him, how would he have time to clear the evidence away and shoot himself? Also, even if you can assume he was suicidal, why would he feel the need to use both methods?

When you look a bit closer at this, there are many more inconsistencies. For example, the police report stated that the door of the greenhouse was barricaded from the inside. However, pictures of the scene have since disproved this. There were also no legible prints on the gun. The size of the shotgun has also brought up questions, as this was likely to have been too big for Kurt to be able to reach the trigger when turning it on himself. It would be more likely for Kurt to have used his toe to pull the trigger, although his shoes were on when he was found. Is this perhaps evidence of a second person in the room? Maybe even someone else could have pulled the trigger?

None of these questions have ever been answered by the Seattle police, or the coroner. There have for many years now been rumours that this was in fact murder, and many fingers have been pointed at Kurt Cobain’s wife, Courtney Love. There have also been many calls for this case to be re-investigated. I believe that this should happen, as there doesn’t seem to have been much investigating done at the time. If you look at the background to this case, hopefully you will support this too. 
 

Background to the case

There are numerous reports that the Cobains had a turbulent marriage, which appeared to have become more so over the last years & few months of Kurt’s life. Much of their problems seemed to revolve around money (Courtney wanted more but Kurt wasn’t interested). One example of this was when Nirvana received an offer to headline the massive alternative music festival Lollapalooza, which would have earned millions of dollars for the band. Kurt decided to turn this down. This led to huge arguments with Courtney, according to Dylan Carlson, friend (and drug dealer) to both Kurt and Courtney. She was said to have gone ballistic due to the amount of money they would lose.
 

The Rome Incident

Probably the most significant event leading up to Kurt’s death happened in early March 1994. This has come to be known as “The Rome Incident”. Kurt had been on tour leading up to this event, however he had been ill for some time, and decided that he needed to cancel the end of the tour. This would cost Nirvana hundreds of thousands of dollars although he was diagnosed with bronchitis and told to rest. He arranged to meet up with Courtney, his baby daughter Frances and their nanny Michael “Cali” Dewitt at a hotel in Rome. During their first night there, Kurt overdosed on his wife’s rohypnol pills (which she had on prescription) combined with champagne. He only just survived.

Again, there are many inconsistencies with this event. Firstly, Kurt didn’t drink, so why the champagne? He also didn’t use rohypnol. If he wanted to take drugs, he would have simply taken heroin (which he had always managed to get hold of before) or something else he was familiar with. Also, Courtney has publicly stated that she awoke at 3 or 4 in the morning to find him unconscious, although the hotel has just as clearly stated that the call for an ambulance was logged at 6.30am. If both statements are true, why would she wait so long? Courtney has also stated that when she found him he had his coat on, there was a note written to her in one hand, and a bundle of cash in the other. Was he running away? Also, confirmed is that he had a bloody nose, with speculation that someone had pinched it to compel him to open his mouth so that the combination of alcohol/ pills could be forced down his throat. If this was the case, there could only be two suspects, Courtney Love and Michael “Cali” Dewitt.

Shortly before this, Kurt had been in contact with their lawyer, Rosemary Carroll. She has confirmed that he called her wanting to change his will, and had told her that he was seeking a divorce from Courtney, and also was considering giving up the music business. In fact, many sources have agreed this was the case. He was apparently making plans for the future, so isn’t this a strange time to take an overdose? Also, from Courtney’s point of view, she was about to lose millions of dollars if he left her. They already had a prenuptial agreement, so she wouldn’t be entitled to any of his earnings, unless he died before completing the changes to his will. He didn’t have the opportunity to do this before he died.

The overdose left him in a coma for over 20 hours, with rumours circulating that Kurt Cobain had died. When he awoke, he had no memory of what had happened to him, which is a common side effect of rohypnol (also known as the date rape drug). At the time this was described as an accidental overdose, although it was only after Kurt’s death it became a suicide attempt, strengthening the argument that Kurt was suicidal.

The Final Few Weeks

After Kurt and Courtney had returned home, their relationship continued to decline. Police were called to their home by Courtney when she told them that Kurt had locked himself in the bathroom with a gun, and was suicidal. However, he had no gun when the police arrived and his story was simply that he was trying to stay away from her. He insisted that he had no intention to kill himself, although guns were seized from the house, along with his prescription medicine for his infamous “stomach problem”.

Afterwards, Courtney arranged an “intervention” for Kurt, explaining that his drug use had got out of control. Invited to this were members of the band’s management and record company. They threatened to drop Nirvana unless he went into rehab. Interestingly, many of the people at the intervention (including Courtney) were also drug users. At first Kurt was furious, although he later agreed to go when Courtney threatened to deny him access to his daughter.

Before leaving for rehab, Kurt went shopping with his friend Dylan Carlson, and bought a gun under Dylan’s name. He told Dylan that he needed one for protection, as he feared intruders in his home. Kurt also told Dylan that if he bought one in his own name he believed the police would confiscate it.

Kurt only stayed in rehab for a couple of days, before absconding. Nobody knows what happened to him in these last few days of his life. Courtney called the police to report him missing, stating that she was his mother, and then hired a private detective by the name of Tom Grant to find him. She also cancelled his credit card leaving him with no access to any money. In the course of Tom Grant’s investigation, he came across so many inconsistencies with Courtney’s story, that even after Kurt’s body was found he needed to continue investigating. In fact he still is today, in the hope that he can finally prove that Kurt Cobain was murdered.

The “Suicide” Note

Kurt Cobain’s so called “suicide” note has also been questioned. There are no actual references to committing suicide in this note, apart from this being hinted at in the last few lines. There is much speculation that these few lines (below) were not in Kurt’s handwriting, and were in fact written by someone else:

“Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your altar. Please keep going Courtney for Frances for her life which will be so much happier without me. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU! “

These lines have been compared to the rest of the note by several handwriting experts, and although they can’t be certain, there is still a strong posibility that this part was forged.

If the rest of the note was to be read (without the suspect ending), it appears to be merely a note Kurt has written to his fans, explaining his reasons for quitting the music business.

The couple’s lawyer, Rosemary Carroll has expressed her concerns regarding this note to Tom Grant, the private detective hired by Courtney Love. She has also claimed that she found a backpack belonging to Courtney, containing a notebook with what looked like somebody practicing writing letters over and over again. She believed that Courtney was trying to copy Kurt’s handwriting. She was also adamant that Kurt was not suicidal. However, she is not prepared to go on the record with these claims, presumably for fear of reprisals from Courtney Love.

Who was using Kurt’s credit card?

When Kurt’s body was dicovered, one of his credit cards was missing.

While Kurt was missing, it transpired that someone had been trying to use the card on a number of occasions, despite it being cancelled by Courtney. Apparently this was an attempt to prevent him having any access to money and force him to return home.

Suspiciously, the credit card had also been used after the time that Kurt died (it has been estimated that he was dead by around the 4th or 5th of April), although this stopped once his body was found on the 8th April.

A Hired Killer?

After Kurt’s death Eldon Hoke (El Duce) came forward, stating publicly that Courtney Love tried to hire him to kill her husband. He said that she approached him as far back as Christmas time 1993, but he refused. El Duce spoke about this on the BBC documentary “Kurt and Courtney”, and also took a lie detector test, which he passed.

However, just days after being filmed for the documentary he was hit by a train and killed. To this date, nobody really knows how he came to be on the railway line in the first place. Did he fall or was he pushed, and if so, by who?

Was somebody trying to stop El Duce from talking anymore? Also, could the same person be responsible for both the deaths of El Duce and Kurt Cobain?

El Duce Polygraph

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Case Summary

So, to summarise, here are some important questions to consider:

1 Why would Kurt take a lethal dose of heroin (assuming he knew it was lethal) and then shoot himself?
2 How could he manage to do this and tidy up before the heroin took effect?
3 If Kurt was planning to cut Courtney out of his will and divorce her, why commit suicide at all?
4 What really happened in Rome?
5 Was El Duce really telling the truth, and what really happened to him?

I have only scratched the surface of this case, as there are so many different stories to tell, and so many more things that don’t quite make sense. I believe that Tom Grant was right, and that somewhere there is proof to substantiate this conclusion. After 18years there’s been more and more information has surfaced thanks to Tom’s website & STUDY MANUAL  

 

 

Just for your entertainment, because i promised a blog post i’m enjoying writing that’s still incomplete

did you know NIRVANA sued Courtney Claiming that she is “incapacitated,” the surviving members of Nirvana want a Seattle judge to order Kurt Cobain’s widow to undergo a psychiatric examination in connection with the court fight raging over control of the grunge band’s legacy. Citing a unique “incapacity” provision in a Nirvana partnership agreement, Dave Grohl and Krist Novoselic filed this April 11 motion in King County Superior Court seeking to have Love examined by a shrink. Cobain’s widow last year filed suit against Grohl and Novoselic to terminate Nirvana L.L.C., the 1997 partnership formed by the trio to administer future group business. In opposing the Grohl/Novoselic bid, Love’s attorney has denied his client is currently addled. it’s been said (in this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oNdZeT-PbvY ) that both parties reached an agreement on their own terms before trial 
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Courtney Love is one of America’s most controversial celebrities — famous for her hard rock music, hard drug use and the many accusations of foul play that surround the alleged suicide of her late husband, Kurt Cobain.  accusations that she continues to “avoid” some how?
 
How asscoited is Love with this town? most people do not know about Courtney Love’s long and special relationship with Seattle law enforcement; a relationship that, according to a WorldNetDaily investigation, compromised the investigation into her husband’s death, and perhaps ruined any chance of ever knowing what really happened to Kurt Cobain. 
 
Killing in the name of LOVE

On May 2, 1993, Courtney Love dialed 911 after Kurt Cobain overdosed on heroin. The Seattle police and fire departments arrived at the Cobain residence and discovered that Cobain had [Figure 9 below] “injected himself with $30-$40 worth of heroin.” Curiously, the police report contains an entire paragraph that has been blacked out. Normally, certain incidental information such as names, addresses and phone numbers are redacted from reports to maintain privacy, but the paragraph in question describes Love’s “attempt” to “save her husband’s life.” Tom Grant, Love’s former private investigator, was successful in uncovering the redacted information. 



 The information in question describes how Love forcibly administered Buprenorphine, Valium and Tylenol laced with Codeine to “save her husband’s life.” This lethal combination of drugs surely aggravated Cobain’s condition and could easily have killed him and yet the Seattle police did not investigate Courtney Love for possessing illegal drugs or for spoon-feeding them to a man who had already overdosed. In fact, they deliberately concealed her criminal actions from the police report released to the public. Why the special treatment for Courtney Love?

On March 18, 1994, the Seattle PD responded to a 911 call at the Cobain residence. The official report recounts Love’s claim that Cobain had locked himself in a room with a gun, and had threatened to kill himself, though Love’s name is blacked out of the report, while Cobain’s is intact. Once again, more special treatment for Courtney Love, though none for Kurt Cobain.


The March 18 report (above) also describes how Cobain calmly cooperated with the investigators and insisted he was not going to hurt himself, but only locked himself in a room because he wanted to get away from his wife. Love then admitted to the police that she never actually saw Cobain with a gun and that he never said he was going to kill himself. Nevertheless, the report says that Courtney Love dialed 911, “for his safety… knowing he had access to guns.”


On April 4, 1994, Courtney Love called the Seattle police early in the morning from Los Angeles to report Kurt Cobain as a missing person and yet for some reason Love falsely portrayed herself as Cobain’s mother, Wendy O’Connor, who lives near Seattle. Why did Love feel the need to hide her identity, unless perhaps she was hiding her motives?

The police report says that “Mr. Cobain ran away from California facility and flew back to Seattle… bought a shotgun and may be suicidal. Det. Terry SPD/Narcotics has further info.” This suggests that Cobain purchased a shotgun on that very day with the intention of killing himself, when in fact he acquired the gun before he admitted himself into drug rehabilitation on March 30. Also, Courtney Love told the police that Cobain had flown to Seattle, when she had told Tom Grant the day before that she had no idea where he might go. 
 
More importantly, why does the 911 report cite narcotics Detective Antonio Terry (died 6/6/94)  as a source? Tom Grant says that Love considered Terry a good friend. If Love got angry and wanted one of her drug buddies arrested, she would call Terry and ask him to bust them. In the days prior to the discovery of Cobain’s body, Love called Detective Terry from Tom Grant’s cellular phone in Los Angeles. This information makes it difficult to deny a relationship between at least one Seattle policeman and Courtney Love. Moreover, it suggests that Detective Terry was willing to abet Love’s machinations, even when she lied to the Seattle police by impersonating Cobain’s mother.


In the aggregate, the police reports clearly illustrate how Courtney Love successfully manipulated the Seattle police. By the time the Seattle PD investigated his death on April 8, they were already convinced Cobain committed suicide. One Seattle policeman told Ian Halperin and Max Wallace, authors of “Who Killed Kurt Cobain?” that when Sergeant Donald Cameron (Retired in 1999 amid a cloud of scandal) ordered the homicide unit to investigate Cobain’s death, he told them that the investigation was just “for show” and not to be too thorough. Apparently, they followed orders.
 

 Setting the Stage… Welcome to the Courtney Show… Love’s “Suicide” 
 
Officer Van Levandowski arrived at the crime scene first. In his report, Levandowski says that he photographed the crime scene using a Polaroid camera, while two other officers used 35mm cameras to do the same. Levandowski describes discovering the “suicide note … apparently written by Cobain to his wife and daughter, explaining why he had killed himself”, but Levandowski reached this conclusion prior to any actual investigation and only four and a half-hours after the body was discovered.
Levandowski also says that “the victim was AWOL from a drug treatment center in Los Angeles and that his family had filed a missing persons report with the SPD. The families fear was that the victim was suicidal and he had recently bought a shotgun.” Another crime scene report by detectives Jim Yoshida and Steve Kirkland includes the line, “This is a suicide note directed to Courtney and (deleted) and signed Kurt Cobain (sic.)” 

But if you think Courtney Love had good friends in the Seattle Police Department, she had even better friends in the King County Medical Examiner’s Office.

King County Chief Medical Examiner Dr. Nikolas Hartshorne was an old friend of Courtney Love and her ex-husband, James Moreland. During the late ’80s, Hartshorne was in the business of promoting punk rock groups and happened to book Nirvana at the Central Tavern in Seattle in 1988. Nirvana eventually became the opening band for Leaving Trains, which was headed by Moreland. 



Dr. Hartshorne conducted the initial examination of Cobain’s body at the crime scene. He photographed the body, examined the shotgun wound, and emptied the contents of Cobain’s pockets. Hartshorne noted that the body was at room temperature and was in the first stages of putrefaction, suggesting that Cobain had been dead for some time. Dr. Hartshorne labeled the cause of death a “self-inflicted shotgun wound” after examining the body for only a few minutes and was soon telling reporters, “I’ve never seen a more open-and-shut case of suicide.” 

However, normally a self-inflicted 12-gauge shotgun wound inflicts massive blood, skull and tissue loss, but the electrician who discovered the body said only that Cobain only had some “blood in his right ear.” and officers on the scene instantly recognized Cobain’s famous face, which was perfectly intact.

Initially, the Seattle Post-Intelligence reported that Cobain “was shot once in the left temple.” But in a nationally televised photo that shows the rear right shoulder of Cobain’s body, not one drop of blood can be seen on Cobain’s white shirt or on the floor around him. If Cobain was shot in the left temple or anywhere else on his head, the right side of his body should have been covered with blood.
 
Despite these inconsistencies, Dr. Hartshorne, issued a death certificate citing as cause of death a “perforating gunshot wound to the head (mouth).” If this is true, all the blood must have exited from the left side of his body. More importantly, this specious death certificate allowed Courtney Love to cremate Cobain’s body only one week after it was discovered, thus permanently destroying the most important piece of evidence in the investigation. 

In response to media incredulity over the mystery wound, in June 1994 the medical examiner’s office modified its verdict by saying that there actually was “no exit wound” and that “all of the shot stayed inside the skull.” Dr. Hartshorne and his colleague Dr. Donald Reay then released a remarkable document that says Cobain suffered both a “contact penetrating shotgun wound to the head” and a “contact perforating shotgun wound to the head.” But a “penetrating” wound is one where the bullet enters, but does not exit the body. A “perforating” wound is one where the bullet both enters and exits the body. Why couldn’t they make up their minds? 

To make matters even more complicated, the autopsy revealed that Cobain had three times the lethal dosage of heroin in his system (1.52 mg/l) when he died. Such a high dosage would kill or incapacitate anyone within seconds. But the 115-pound Kurt Cobain somehow managed to inject himself with a triple deadly dose of heroin; then neatly put away his drug kit before inserting a shotgun into his mouth and pulling the trigger. Furthermore, not only was there no exit wound, there weren’t even any fingerprints on the shotgun. 


In an interview with Halperin and Wallace, Dr. Hartshorne acknowledged his friendship with Courtney Love, though he denied any conflict of interest. When they asked him if some kind of forensic test had been performed on Cobain’s body to determine if he had fired a gun prior to his death, Hartshorne said that “that test isn’t always reliable” and cited a state law that prevents him from releasing of autopsy results. Shortly after this interview was made public, Dr. Hartshorne left his job at the medical examiner’s office and began work as a medical examiner in a small Florida town. 



When the Seattle police finally inspected Cobain’s wallet, five days after the body was discovered, they did not find the Sea First Visa card that Love canceled a few days before the body was found. Cobain used this credit card to purchase two airline tickets just before his death, but someone else tried to use Cobain’s card at least twice after his death. Obviously, this person must have been with Cobain just prior to his death, and might have been the last person to see him alive. But the Seattle police made no effort to identify this individual. 

In response to media interest in the mysterious credit card user, Seattle police spokesman Sean O’Donnell said that the “the information we’ve been able to receive from the bank has only been able to identify for us when the information was logged onto their mainframe computer and not specifically when the attempt was made and who it was made by.” But when Tom Grant contacted the credit card company, they told him that such information appears on their computer only a few minutes after a transaction. This suggests the Seattle PD never investigated the missing credit card and deliberately misled the public about its investigation. 

In reality, the Seattle police have misled the public from the beginning. Halperin and Wallace’s confidential source in the Seattle PD said that Sergeant “Cameron will never admit he made a mistake; he is very concerned about his reputation…. I don’t necessarily think the death was a murder, but there are too many inconsistencies to just call it a suicide.” 


8/29/94 

These inconsistencies might be cleared up if the Seattle police would publicly open the case file or actually develop the photos taken of the Cobain crime scene. As Sergeant Cameron said to Tom Grant, “We haven’t developed the photographs and probably never will. We don’t develop photographs on suicides.” 



Courtney Love told Tom Grant about a conversation she had with Sergeant Cameron regarding a suspicious “suicide note” Kurt Cobain allegedly wrote from Rome, Italy a month before his death. “This will never do you any good,” Cameron told Love. “I’d get rid of this if I were you.” When Grant ask “why would anyone tell you to get rid of this” Courtney replied “because it wasn’t very nice, it mentioned getting a divorce” If what Courtney say is true, this would not be the only time Donald Cameron obstructed justice. Sergeant Cameron is now on administrative leave for concealing evidence in another, unrelated 1999 case. 

Within months of Kurt Cobain’s death, Detective Antonio Terry was killed in a strange shooting incident, the first Seattle police officer killed on duty in nine years. Terry was soon followed by Courtney Love’s guitarist, Kristen Pfaff, who died of a bizarre heroin overdose the day before she was planning to move out of town. While it is open to speculation why these and other people close to Courtney Love have a habit of dying mysterious deaths, How much longer will Courtney Love remain “above” suspicion? 


 

Friday, April 8th

Kurt’s body was discovered that Friday morning when electrician Gary Smith arrived at the Seattle home to install a new security system. There was no answer at the front door, although a television was on inside; so he got to work, following wires along the garage to the greenhouse room above it. Looking in a window, Gary saw an upended plant, and what he initially thought was a mannequin. It was only when he noticed the blood that he realized he was wrong. At about 8.40 a.m., Smith called the police; it was his employer who phoned the local rock radio station KXRX. They ignored the report at first. It took a second conversation and a confirmation call to the police to convince the station. By 9:30 a.m., the news was cutting into morning rush hour traffic.

Dylan and Tom were on their way to the Carnation property again when they stopped for gas. Dylan got out to make a phone call. He came back to the car and said a friend just told him a body was found at the Lake Washington house. He didn’t know if it was Kurt, Cali, or someone else. They turned on the radio and found out that it was, indeed, Kurt. Dylan showed no reaction. Later it was announced the body was discovered in “the greenhouse.”  Tom turned to Dylan and asked, “What’s the greenhouse?” He told Tom it was a room above the garage. “Why didn’t we look there?” asked Tom. “It’s just a dirty little room. I think they keep some lumber there or something,” replied Dylan. In the May 11th issue of the Seattle Times, Dylan told a Times reporter he didn’t know the greenhouse existed. “For all the times I’d been there, I didn’t even realize there was a room above it associated with the house.” This contradicts the conversation Tom had with Dylan. These statements by Dylan are highly suspicious. He knew the greenhouse was there and that it was not a “dirty little room.” Cali had even lived in there at one point! ( Mojo Issue 54, May 1998 - Who Killed Kurt Cobain?) 

Tom called his office and spoke with Ben Klugman. The bank had indicated someone was trying to use Kurt’s credit card as recent as Friday morning, April 8th, just hours before the body was found. It was soon learned that Kurt had been dead for two days or more. Someone had attempted to use the card after Kurt was dead, stopping only when the body was discovered. Tom called the Seattle homicide detectives and tried to tell them something was wrong. The detective informed Tom that Kurt was locked in the room by himself. The police said the door was locked from the inside and the fire department had to break a window on the door to get in, inferring that Kurt had to have been alone in the greenhouse when he died. Tom assumed they must know what they’re talking about but remained curious about what type of door lock it was. 

Tom also spoke to Courtney on the phone that afternoon. He says she wasn’t at all upset that they hadn’t found Kurt and acted like she thought Kurt died the night before. Courtney tried to get Tom to talk to the press but he didn’t want to say anything until more details emerged. Privately, Tom thought the whole thing smelled rotten. 

Wednesday, April 13th

Tom flew back to Los Angeles and met with Courtney’s entertainment lawyer, Rosemary Carroll, at her Hollywood office. She indicated her suspicions about Courtney’s involvement in Kurt’s death. “He wasn’t suicidal, Tom. He wasn’t suicidal!“ Rosemary blurted with a deep sigh. She went on to say that Courtney had called her “a couple of weeks ago” and asked her to find the “meanest, most vicious divorce lawyer” she could find. Courtney also asked her if the pre-nuptial agreement could be voided. Rosemary said Kurt called around this time too: he hadn’t completed his will yet and he wanted Courtney taken out of it. Among other items discussed, Rosemary said she was disturbed and somewhat suspicious that Courtney wouldn’t let her or anyone else see the “suicide” note.

Tom mentioned Courtney’s claim that she couldn’t go to Seattle herself because she had business in Los Angeles. “She didn’t have any business in L.A.!” Rosemary responded and proceeded to tell Tom that on Thursday morning, while Courtney was at her house talking to Dylan, she overheard Courtney say, “Be sure and check the greenhouse.” Since Courtney directed Dylan to look in the greenhouse, Tom wondered why she didn’t have Cali check it. Courtney’s instructions to Dylan, combined with her hiring of the electricians to work on the greenhouse, suggests she may have known Kurt’s body there. By 6:30PM, Tom was on his way back to Seattle. 

Thursday, April 14th

A security guard let Tom into the Lake Washington property where he found Courtney sitting at the dining room table. “I guess I really found the right P.I. this time,” Courtney said as he sat down to talk. The comment was not sarcastic and obviously meant as a compliment. After a short conversation, Courtney got up for a cigarette and a lady walked over to where Tom was sitting. She was wearing a black t-shirt that read, ”Grunge Is Dead,” and Tom assumed she was a relative of Kurt’s, maybe a sister or cousin. She stood in front of him and asked, “You’re the investigator?” Tom nodded while she continued, “What do you think?” Not knowing who she was, he replied, “I don’t know. What do you think?” She answered by introducing herself. “Well, I’m Kurt’s mom, Wendy.. I don’t know. Something doesn’t seem right. Why didn’t Dylan look in the greenhouse?”

Tom said he would like to sit down and talk with her sometime in the next few days. She agreed and said she’d like to talk as well. Tom noticed Courtney looking over her shoulder as he spoke with Wendy. He felt Courtney was concerned about their conversation. As she walked back towards them, Wendy moved away. Courtney went over to Wendy, put her arms around her and kissed her. Tom noticed Courtney whispering into Wendy’s ear. During the rest of his visit, he felt Wendy was evasive and cool towards him.  

 Courtney brought Tom upstairs where they sat on her bed and talked. Since she hadn’t even let her close friend and lawyer, Rosemary Carroll, see the “suicide” note, Tom knew he had to figure out a way to see it and get a copy. “I heard you read the note on TV the other day,” he told Courtney. “I was confused about something. It sounded like the note said, ‘I’m lying here on the bed…’ If Kurt was lying on the bed when he wrote the note,” he asked, “why was the bed so neat when I came in here the other night. It didn’t look like anyone had been on this bed.” 

“No, Tom, I was lying on the bed,” Courtney answered and repeated, “I was lying on the bed recording the message to Kurt’s fans.” ”Are you sure that’s what you said?” Tom asked. “I got the impression it was Kurt saying he was lying on the bed.” ”No. Here, I’ll show you,” Courtney said, as she reached to retrieve a folded paper from under a pillow. “It’s only a copy,” Courtney pointed out while handing Tom the note. “The police have the original.” He studied the note as if to look for the phrase in question, then commented, “I can’t read this without my glasses. Can I go downstairs and make a copy of on your fax machine? I’ll look at it later.” 

“Yeah… sure,” Courtney mumbled as her eyes came out of an icy stare. When Tom came back upstairs, Courtney was kneeling on the floor looking in a phone book. A telephone was on the floor next to her. “Would you wait downstairs, Tom?” she snapped.

Later that day they made plans to go to the Carnation property. Eric Erlandson, Hole’s guitarist, was supposed to go with them but at the Lake Washington house earlier, Courtney took him into another room to talk in private. When they came out, Eric left the house alone in his van. “I thought Eric was going with us” said Tom. “He’ll meet us there,” Courtney replied. Kat Bjelland, guitarist for Babes In Toyland, rode along in the back seat of Tom’s rental car as they drove to Carnation. 
 

During the drive Courtney began talking about the “son of a bitch” who gave the story to the Associated Press saying she had overdosed on April 2nd. Courtney soon became agitated and grumbled, “I’m going to find out who the hell it was and sue that motherfucker for libel. I can prove I was at the hotel. People saw me there. It was a total lie.”  

“You told me you planted that story,” Tom reminded Courtney. “Huh? …Oh” she responded and then turned to look out the window. 

Courtney wanted to stop twice for snacks. They also missed the turn off, getting lost temporarily and having to solicit directions from a nearby farmer. Tom later found out that one of the houses on the property had just been built. Courtney might have been out there several times while the house was under construction, and it wasn’t all that difficult to find. He began to suspect these strange delays were deliberate. During the trip, Courtney talked to Seattle narcotics Detective Antonio Terry on Tom’s car phone. Tom later discovered she had talked to Terry a lot during the time Kurt was missing. Det. Terry was even mentioned in the missing person’s report as having additional information about Kurt.

Thursday, April 14th

A security guard let Tom into the Lake Washington property where he found Courtney sitting at the dining room table. “I guess I really found the right P.I. this time,” Courtney said as he sat down to talk. The comment was not sarcastic and obviously meant as a compliment.
After a short conversation, Courtney got up for a cigarette and a lady walked over to where Tom was sitting. She was wearing a black t-shirt that read, ”Grunge Is Dead,” and Tom assumed she was a relative of Kurt’s, maybe a sister or cousin. She stood in front of him and asked, “You’re the investigator?” Tom nodded while she continued, “What do you think?” Not knowing who she was, he replied, “I don’t know. What do you think?” She answered by introducing herself. “Well, I’m Kurt’s mom, Wendy.. I don’t know. Something doesn’t seem right. Why didn’t Dylan look in the greenhouse?” 

Tom said he would like to sit down and talk with her sometime in the next few days. She agreed and said she’d like to talk as well. Tom noticed Courtney looking over her shoulder as he spoke with Wendy. He felt Courtney was concerned about their conversation. As she walked back towards them, Wendy moved away. Courtney went over to Wendy, put her arms around her and kissed her. Tom noticed Courtney whispering into Wendy’s ear. During the rest of his visit, he felt Wendy was evasive and cool towards him.
 

Courtney brought Tom upstairs where they sat on her bed and talked. Since she hadn’t even let her close friend and lawyer, Rosemary Carroll, see the “suicide” note, Tom knew he had to figure out a way to see it and get a copy. “I heard you read the note on TV the other day,” he told Courtney. “I was confused about something. It sounded like the note said, ‘I’m lying here on the bed…’ If Kurt was lying on the bed when he wrote the note,” he asked, “why was the bed so neat when I came in here the other night. It didn’t look like anyone had been on this bed.” 

“No, Tom, I was lying on the bed,” Courtney answered and repeated, “I was lying on the bed recording the message to Kurt’s fans.” ”Are you sure that’s what you said?” Tom asked. “I got the impression it was Kurt saying he was lying on the bed.” ”No. Here, I’ll show you,” Courtney said, as she reached to retrieve a folded paper from under a pillow. “It’s only a copy,” Courtney pointed out while handing Tom the note. “The police have the original.” He studied the note as if to look for the phrase in question, then commented, “I can’t read this without my glasses. Can I go downstairs and make a copy of on your fax machine? I’ll look at it later.” 

“Yeah… sure,” Courtney mumbled as her eyes came out of an icy stare. When Tom came back upstairs, Courtney was kneeling on the floor looking in a phone book. A telephone was on the floor next to her. “Would you wait downstairs, Tom?” she snapped.

Later that day they made plans to go to the Carnation property. Eric Erlandson, Hole’s guitarist, was supposed to go with them but at the Lake Washington house earlier, Courtney took him into another room to talk in private. When they came out, Eric left the house alone in his van. “I thought Eric was going with us” said Tom. “He’ll meet us there,” Courtney replied. Kat Bjelland, guitarist for Babes In Toyland, rode along in the back seat of Tom’s rental car as they drove to Carnation. 

During the drive Courtney began talking about the “son of a bitch” who gave the story to the Associated Press saying she had overdosed on April 2nd. Courtney soon became agitated and grumbled, “I’m going to find out who the hell it was and sue that motherfucker for libel. I can prove I was at the hotel. People saw me there. It was a total lie.”   “You told me you planted that story,” Tom reminded Courtney. “Huh? …Oh” she responded and then turned to look out the window. 

Courtney wanted to stop twice for snacks. They also missed the turn off, getting lost temporarily and having to solicit directions from a nearby farmer. Tom later found out that one of the houses on the property had just been built. Courtney might have been out there several times while the house was under construction, and it wasn’t all that difficult to find. He began to suspect these strange delays were deliberate.
During the trip, Courtney talked to Seattle narcotics Detective Antonio Terry on Tom’s car phone. Tom later discovered she had talked to Terry a lot during the time Kurt was missing. Det. Terry was even mentioned in the missing person’s report as having additional information about Kurt. 

When they arrived at Carnation, Tom noticed the two houses on the property reflected what he had already come to know about Kurt and Courtney’s individual personalities. One was an old weathered cabin full of well-used furniture and bedding. This is where Kurt apparently felt the most comfortable. The other house was a brand new wood-sided mansion, vacant and yet to be furnished. The two houses were separated by a pond with a newly constructed walking bridge connecting the old to the new. The group checked the old cabin first. Courtney and Kat went upstairs to the loft while Tom stayed downstairs to look around. He noticed a jacket and other clothing spread around the living room. On the floor near the coffee table was a large box containing nothing but Rolling Stone magazines, about thirty or so. 

Based on conversations he had in the car with Courtney, it was apparent she wanted Tom to believe Kurt had been to the Carnation property after he returned to Seattle. When Tom looked around the old cabin, however, he noticed everything was covered with a very thin layer of moss. The moss was present due to high humidity and it indicated no one had disturbed anything in the cabin for quite some time. 

When Courtney and Kat came back downstairs, Courtney reached into her coat pocket and pulled out a cloth pouch. “Look Tom. Kurt was here,” she said, as she opened the pouch revealing a syringe inside. “No way!” he thought to myself. Tom didn’t think it looked like something Kurt would use to keep a syringe in. If he did bring it to the cabin, why would he have left it? What about the moss? Tom suspected Courtney had brought the pouch with her. Kat walked over to the bathroom, went inside, and began screaming a few seconds later. There were five dead rats in the toilet! They’d obviously been there for quite some time and it was now obvious that no one had used this cabin recently. Tom’s suspicions were confirmed.
 

In the newer mansion, they found a sleeping bag, some cigarette butts and soda cans scattered about. Courtney wanted to take these items back to get them fingerprinted. What’s the big deal here? Tom wondered. Why is it so important that she proves Kurt was here recently? He noted that Eric never showed up at the Carnation property. Had he come and gone before they arrived? 

During the drive back to the Lake Washington residence, Courtney announced she was going to make a rubber hand from a cast she’d made of Kurt’s hand. She said she was going to use it to slap people in the face and say, “There! That’s from Kurt!” Tom mentioned he had worked with hand casts and that it was amazing one could even duplicate fingerprints using certain silicon materials. Courtney appeared strangely discouraged. After this bizarre conversation, Tom never heard anything more about printing the items found at the Carnation property. Tom couldn’t help but think this was part of a scheme to convince people Kurt had been to the Carnation property after leaving the rehab in Los Angeles. 
 

While Courtney was out of the car during one of our stops, radio commentator Paul Harvey spoke about a rumored suicide pact which supposedly existed between  Courtney and Kurt. This was the typical kind of planted story he’d seen Courtney originate on her own, and then blame others for leaking. Tom wondered if there was a connection between her fake “overdose” Saturday night and her possible deliberate overdose and arrest Thursday morning. Had she expected Kurt to die Saturday night? Had she anticipated someone finding his body shortly thereafter? When that didn’t happen, did she expect Dylan and Tom to find his body Thursday morning? Had Courtney tried to make this look like a suicide pact? 

Back at the house, Tom told Courtney he would like to speak with Cali and Dylan together. Courtney replied, “Cali went to rehab in El Paso, or Georgia… no, he’s in L.A. with friends.” Then she shouted to Eric, “Call Cali and tell him to get back up here on the next plane.” Dylan stopped by house, but when Tom came out of the kitchen to question him he was told Dylan was upstairs with Courtney in the bedroom. They came back down after about twenty minutes. It was obvious Dylan had just gotten a heroin fix. Tom took Dylan into the kitchen to talk, but as he began questioning, he noticed Dylan’s responses were canned, as if he’d just rehearsed them. As they talked, Dylan kept nodding off from the heroin. There was no sense in continuing so Tom left the house and asked Eric Erlandson to call his hotel room when Cali arrived. After several hours, Tom called the Lake Washington house again. Eric said that after Tom left, Courtney had him phone Cali and tell him he didn’t have to come to Seattle. Eric said, “I don’t know what’s going on here!” 

Friday and Saturday, April 15th-16th

Ben Klugman flew to Seattle to work with Tom. The two investigators went back to the Lake Washington house to talk to Courtney. The lady who answered the door told them Courtney was upstairs sleeping. Tom asked about Wendy, Kurt’s mother. The unknown lady said Wendy was downstairs. Tom said to let Wendy know he was there, perhaps they could talk. The lady left, returning a couple of minutes later to inform them, “Wendy says she has nothing to talk to you about.” Tom and Ben left, and after following up on some other leads, returned to their hotel.

The electrical supervisor, Charles Pelly, who had been at the scene of Kurt’s death, met with Tom and Ben later at the hotel room. Charles told them it looked as if Kurt’s hair had been neatly combed. Tom realized this could have been just his perception but wanted to see the police photos to be sure. Charles also revealed that Courtney called the electrical contractors on Wednesday, April 6th, (before Tom had agreed to fly to Seattle) and instructed them to begin work on the lights and motion detector on the greenhouse.

Monday, April 4th

Tom went back to the Peninsula Hotel where Courtney informed him that she had filed a missing person’s report pretending to be Wendy O’Conner, Kurt’s mother. She also told Tom that “everyone thinks he’s going to die.” As Tom monitored the Seattle surveillance team, he continued to work with the bank to track the use of Kurt’s credit card. Someone was attempting to use it for various charges. Courtney advised the Tom that Kurt only stays in the best hotels, so they began calling hotels in the Seattle area out of the phone book.

At some point, Tom believed they had located Kurt under one of the aliases Courtney had provided. When he notified her, she said to keep watching the hotel, but that she didn’t want Kurt to know they were looking for him. She had previously mentioned Kurt was suicidal, so now Tom wondered why she didn’t want the police or somebody else to go to the room and save him. Courtney told Tom she called the room and it wasn’t Kurt. Of course, now Tom wondered why she would call the hotel room, since she apparently didn’t want Kurt to know about the search.

Courtney was also interviewed by Robert Hilburn of the LA Times. During the interview, she burst into tears and did a u-turn, saying she didn’t care about Kurt pulling out of Lollapalooza, and that she just never wanted to see Kurt on the floor like that again, referring to the Rome incident. When Hilburn asked about her lyrics “I lie, and lie, and lie,” she replied teasingly (Hilburn’s words): ‘It’s just admitting that I can be dishonest, that I can be a liar.’ Elsewhere in the article Hilburn wrote: ‘She clearly enjoys being a star.’ Courtney to Hilburn; “Everyone likes to gossip about me,” She said, pointing to a Macintosh computer that sits across the room in its packing container. ‘One of the reasons I got that is so I can read all the gossip about me on America Online.’ (Los Angeles Times April 10 1994). 

Tuesday, April 5th 

At 4pm on this day Gillian Gaar, a journalist for the Seattle Rocket magazine called Courtney at the Beverly Hills Peninsula Hotel. Gaar was unable to talk to Courtney so she spoke to her bassist, Eric Erlandson, for an hour. The Rocket hoped to have Hole on its cover for the next edition. Eric promised them he’d try to get Courtney to do the interview. After Courtney failed to contact Gillian Gaar by noon, April 6, the Rocket gave the cover story to someone else.

 In 2001, Charles Cross reported that Courtney sent Eric Erlandson to Seattle on April 5th to look for Kurt. In order to place Erlandson in Seattle on that date, Cross changed the timeline (and circumstances) as given by Gaar, to: On Tuesday afternoon (of April 5) Courtney sent Hole’s Eric Erlandson to the Lake Washington home to look for Kurt…. Courtney had been scheduled to do a phone interview with The Rocket on Tuesday morning. Erlandson phoned the magazine and said it would have to be postponed…(‘Heavier Than Heaven’ page 335). 

In a Seattle police report dated April 8 1994, it is clear that Courtney arranged for Tom Grant to go to Seattle. There was no mention that Courtney had sent Eric Erlandson to Seattle on April 5th. Cross simply accepted misinformation given to him by Love, as fact, even though it contradicts Gillian Gaar and the police reports.  ( Mojo, May 2001) 

Wednesday, April 6th

On the morning of April 6, someone tried to charge $1,517.56 for a cash advance on Kurt’s credit card at 7:07 a.m. SeaFirst bank records indicate the card was not present, so it may have been a phone charge or an in-person attempt without the card. No other information was saved by the bank. (Seattle Times - May 11, 1994) Courtney also called some electrical contractors and instructed them to begin work on the lights and motion detector on the greenhouse. Did she already know Kurt’s body was inside? Was she trying to get him discovered? Cali was seen coming and going from house, along with electrical contractors (Sanford, Christopher Kurt Cobain 1996, pg.329). Dylan Carlson stated that Cali had called to ask if he had seen Kurt. (Carlson’s interview with the Seattle police, 12 April 1994).  By this stage Courtney had finally informed Tom that Kurt was seen at the house on April 2nd. Since Kurt still had not been located, Tom offered to personally fly to Seattle and continue the search. One of Courtney’s friends in the room said, “Why don’t you go up there Courtney?” She replied, “I can’t. I have business I have to take care of here.” Tom asked Courtney not to tell anyone he was coming because they might alert Kurt. She agreed, but later she called Cali and told him about it. At first, Courtney said she didn’t trust Cali. Now she claimed, “He won’t tell anyone.” As Tom left the Peninsula Hotel that afternoon and headed for the airport, she shouted dramatically, “Save the American icon, Tom!”

 By that evening Tom was in Seattle. At around 11:30PM he picked up Kurt’s friend Dylan Carlson at his apartment. At a local cafe, they planned a strategy and spoke about what was going on. Tom asked Dylan if he felt Kurt was suicidal. He answered, “No, not at all. He’s under a lot of pressure but he’s handling things pretty good.” Tom asked if Dylan had ever been told the Rome incident was actually a suicide attempt. Dylan replied, “No. Kurt said it was just an accident.” If Kurt was so suicidal, and had ”tried to kill himself” a month before,  Tom wondered why no one clued in the guy he hangs out with. One would assume that Dylan could have kept a close eye on Kurt, preventing him from having any access to guns.

Dylan said Kurt had been afraid of intruders at the house lately and wanted a gun for protection. He talked about how the two had bought the shotgun so it would be there when Kurt returned from the Exodus center. He explained how Kurt didn’t want the gun registered in his name since the police had confiscated all his other firearms. Tom and Dylan left the cafe to check a drug dealer’s apartment on Capitol Hill and several hotels on the Aurora strip. Tom mentioned Courtney’s statement that Kurt always chooses to stay in the “best hotels.” “No he doesn’t,” Dylan appeared confused, “He usually stays in some pretty ratty places.” While they drove around, Tom asked if they should stop by Kurt’s mom’s house. Dylan replied, “No. Kurt wouldn’t go there. He doesn’t get along with his mom.” 

Thursday, April 7th  

Tom and Dylan pulled up in front of the Lake Washington house. Tom waited in the car while Dylan walked up alone, as they had previously planned. Tom did not want Kurt to know he was there, if they could help it. Dylan came back to the car at least five minutes later saying no one was home. Tom wondered why it took so long if no one was there (it’s possible that Dylan may have run into Cali during those five minutes or worst noticed his best friend lying dead?). 

Dylan and Tom then went to a pay phone and called Courtney, who was at Rosemary Carroll’s house in Los Angeles. Dylan talked with Courtney, and Tom requested that she call the security company to turn off the alarm so they could get in the house. During this call, Rosemary overheard Courtney tell Dylan to check the greenhouse. Shortly after this call, Courtney returned to the Peninsula Hotel and promptly “overdosed”. A call was made to 911 from her hotel room, she was arrested and taken to hospital.

After returning to the Lake Washington residence, Tom and Dylan gained access through an unlocked kitchen window. While they searched inside, Dylan commented, “I’ve never seen the house this clean before.” A television was still on in one of the bedrooms upstairs and the bed was unmade. Dylan said this was Cali’s room. They didn’t find Kurt: Dylan failed to mention the room above the garage, and since it was dark and raining, Tom hadn’t noticed it. Dylan was dropped off at his apartment and Tom headed back to the hotel for a few hours of sleep. 

At 1:30 p.m., Tom’s associate called Ernie Barth to have the surveillance of the Lake Washington house removed. Meanwhile, Courtney was rushed to a Los Angeles hospital for what her lawyer said was an allergic reaction to prescription drugs. Police arrested her for suspected heroin possession, but the prosecutors later said the substance was legal and declined to file charges. Also that day, at 4 p.m., Cali took a taxi to the airport and flew to Los Angeles, leaving the house empty. (Seattle Times - May 11, 1994) He later said, ”Courtney accused me of hiding Kurt,” so he flew to Los Angeles to protest his innocence. The story was that Courtney needed reassuring, she claimed to Grant that she thought Cali had been shielding Kurt from her. (now the story is that Courtney sent Cali to Rehab) Either way, This interaction between Courtney and Cali would imply they had been in regular contact since his call to her on April 2nd. Yet she did not convey the extent of her fears by getting him to check the gun closet and the greenhouse. Neither did she have him constantly monitor the proceedings at Lake Washington house. 

If Courtney genuinely thought Cali was shielding Kurt, the most logical action would be to inform Tom Grant of this situation, but she didn’t do this. The only other possibility is that her above claim was a smokescreen, covering up the fact she was conspiring with Cali to keep Kurt’s whereabouts unknown, at least until April 6th, giving ample time to plant false leads and alibis. Cali was absent during the search for Kurt, between April 2-5th. On April 6th he suddenly became eager to emphasise he was trying to locate/contact Kurt by phoning Dylan to ask if he had seen Kurt (Dylan’s April 12 police report)

and leaving a note to Kurt on the stairs of the house (the note & transcript will be posted a little later on). Tom picked up Dylan later and they resumed the search, spending most of the day checking out Kurt’s hangouts and talking to people who might know where he was. They found one of Kurt’s two cars in front of a friend’s (the friend’s name is revealed in the Cobain Case Study manual, But to avoid confusion he shall remain nameless) house with a “FOR SALE” sign on it. Tom knows who drove the car to this location but says it is irrelevant and will not discuss further details until the case is reopened.  Dylan checked the car for any clues as to Kurt’s whereabouts, but found none. 

As evening approached, they headed for Carnation, a small town about 30 miles east of Seattle where the Cobain’s owned two vacant cabins situated on several acres of property. Dylan became unsure of how to get there in the dark, and with the increasing rain, they decided to turn back. Tom pulled over to a pay phone and Dylan made a call. When he returned to the car, he said, “Courtney’s had some trouble. She’s been arrested and she’s in the hospital.”

Dylan eventually managed to speak to Courtney on the phone to get further instructions. She wanted them to go back to the Lake Washington house to look for the shotgun in a hidden compartment inside the closet. Since Cali was at the house quite a lot, Tom wondered why she hadn’t asked the nanny to check there before. At 9:45PM, they returned to the Cobain house. Inside, Tom found a note from Cali that was placed on the main stairway.

It wasn’t there the night before and Tom had a feeling it might have been left there for him to find. 

Cali’s Note:

KURT— I cant Believe you managed to Be in this House without me noticeing. you’re a fuckin asshole for not calling Courtney & at least Letting her know that your O.K. She’s in alot of pain Kurt, and this morning she had another “accident” now she’s in the hospital again. She’s your wife & she Loves you & you have a child together get it together to at Least tell her your O.K. OR she is going to DIE. it’s not fair man. Do Something now.  

 When Tom was in Seattle on Thursday, Cali told friends he was leaving for Los Angeles. Tom never got to see or talk with him while he was in Seattle, but Courtney had notified Cali that Tom was coming there to search for Kurt. If Cali really wanted to help, he could have made himself available to Tom and Dylan. According to this note, he thought Kurt had returned to the house. Tom wondered how Cali knew this and why he hadn’t been told. If Cali thought a suicidal Kurt might be at the house, why didn’t he stick around to help? Upon further examination, Tom wondered: Is this note written to someone who is supposedly suicidal, by someone who actually cared? Could the note have been left by Cali just to convince others he didn’t know where Kurt was? Is the note for Courtney’s benefit, to create sympathy for a grieving widow? At 1:35 a.m., yet another unexplained charge was attempted on Cobain’s credit card, for $43.29. (Mojo Issue 54, May 1998 - Who Killed Kurt Cobain?)

 

After the Rome incident, where Kurt suffered an overdose on roofies, he tried to file for divorce and have Courtney written out of his will. Kurt was in the process of leaving her, and Seattle, when he was found dead. Courtney knew Kurt wanted out of their marriage. There are at least three witnesses to this fact:

•In the June 2 1994 edition of Rolling Stone magazine, Nirvana’s manager, Gold Mountain employee Janet Billig said the letter to Courtney that Kurt wrote in Rome was not a suicide note. He simply took all of his and Courtney’s money and was going to run away and disappear 

•A female nanny who took care of the Cobain’s daughter, Frances Bean, was interviewed by Nick Broomfield for a BBC documentary. She stated Kurt wanted “to get away from Courtney” and that Courtney was preoccupied Kurt’s desire to change his Will. The nanny became so distressed with the atmosphere at the house that she quit a week or so before Kurt died. This claim is supported by lawyer Rosemary Carroll’s statements and by Wallace & Halperin in their book ‘Who Killed Kurt Cobain?’ 

MOST IMPORTANTLY  Courtney told Tom Grant that the note Kurt wrote in Rome in March 1994 “wasn’t really nice” and that it “talked about getting a divorce”. She also told him that Sgt. Don Cameron of the Seattle Police Dept. advised her to get rid of the note. Tom Grant has released the recorded conversations of the Cobain’s entertainment lawyer (Carroll) and Courtney Love. Courtney is clearly on the tapes telling Grant that Kurt was leaving her and that he wanted a divorce. These tapes have never been mentioned in “mainstream media” coverage of this case. 

Kurt had walked away from a headlining spot on the Lollapalooza tour, a deal worth $9.5 million, and Courtney was angry. She tried to blame Kurt’s attitude on drugs, and put together a “tough-love intervention” which included some of the very junkies Kurt used to hang out with. Courtney claims she told him, “This has got to end. You have to be a good daddy!” This statement was somewhat ridiculous coming from Courtney: she was on drugs during the entire 7 months that P.I. Tom Grant worked for her during 1994. It’s difficult to believe Kurt took her “intervention” seriously either.  According to Kurt and the people who knew him, he was off drugs and trying to stay clean. 

The rock star was under tremendous pressure to submit to drug treatment. “He felt that he had no habit,” Dylan Carlson said. “That was more like what management wanted him to do.”  Danny Goldberg, a former Nirvana manager and Atlantic Records vice president, said Cobain was “extremely reluctant: and “denied that he was doing anything self-destructive.” By meeting’s end, people thought Cobain had softened and been persuaded to seek drug rehabilitation. He agreed to leave for a detox program in Los Angeles. The next day, on Saturday, March 26, 1994, Courtney left Seattle for the Peninsula Hotel in Beverly Hills, California

Her absence would imply that Courtney was willing to leave Kurt to his own devices, but conveniently, Cali remained at the Seattle residence. When Kurt returned to the house on April 2nd, Cali was still there: Kurt was never really free of her influence. 

There are a few instances when this control was precarious as Kurt attempted to change his lifestyle. These instances were: 

1. (March 4th) In Rome he attempted to leave her/run away. He ended up in hospital fighting for his life, and didn’t know why. 

2. (March 22nd) Kurt insisted on returning the Lexus. At this time, Kenney described Courtney as popping pills and “unstable”. 

3. (end of March) Kurt refused intervention and rehab. At this time Sepedjian described Courtney as “frantic” and “screaming”. 

4. (late March/early April) When Kurt talked about divorce and requested a new will excluding Courtney. He died before he got the chance to sign it.  

5. (April 1st) When Kurt left the rehab. At this time Joe Mama described Courtney as “freaked” and “scared” 

Courtney didn’t want him to have control. It scared her, not because he was suicidal, but because she stood to lose everything if he signed his Will and divorced her. When David Haig met Kurt (after Rome) in a downtown hotel he found him tense and emotional - weeping openly when discussing his marriage. Kurt also complained to him of partial memory loss, insomnia, fatigue and “a buzzing in the top of my head”. (Sandford page 321)

It is interesting that Haig made no mention of Kurt looking druggedup/depressed/suicidal. His observations of Kurt are more in line with what one would expect of a classic victim of Rohypnol induced assault. On March 29th 1994, Kurt didn’t have his complete memory back with regards to Rome. Within 6 days he was dead. 


After the intervention, Cobain hung around Seattle for five days on Wednesday, March 30, he finally agreed to go to the Exodus Treatment Center in California. Before leaving, however, Kurt visited his friend Dylan Carlson in Seattle’s Lake City. 

Dylan was reportedly his closest friend at the time. Kurt confided to Dylan that he was afraid of intruders at the house, so the two went to a local gun dealer and bought a shotgun. It was registered in Dylan’s name: since Kurt’s other guns had been confiscated by the police twice in the past, he didn’t want people to know he had a new one. 

The shotgun was a 20 gauge set for light load. Gun dealers recommend this set-up for home protection because the shot will not penetrate walls and endanger those on the other side. It was purchased for protection, not suicide. When asked about Kurt’s mental state on March 30th, Dylan remarked in Cobain by Rolling Stone editors. ”He seemed normal…we’d been talking.”

Tom Grant thinks Kurt was intimidated into believing his life was in danger if he failed to do the Lollapalooza tour. Turning down a big music festival like that would cost others a great deal of money. Kurt took the newly-purchased shotgun to his house a stashed it in a hidden compartment in the bedroom closet. He then left for the airport and flew to the Exodus rehab facility in Los Angeles. Some media sources reported that he acquired the gun after coming back to Seattle, but this is not true.


Thursday-Friday, March 31/April 1st

 At the Exodus clinic, Cobain was visited by his daughter, Frances Bean Cobain, and one of the nannies. It would be the child’s last visit with her father. On April 1st, Kurt received a visit from Joe Mama at Exodus rehab, Joe said, “I was ready to see him look like nuts and depressed. He looked fucking great!” He went on to say: “After Kurt left I was on the phone to Courtney all the time. She was really freaked out, so we drove around looking for him at all the places he might have gone. She was really scared from the beginning. I guess she could tell. If Kurt looked so great, surely Joe would have conveyed this to Courtney. Why then was she so “freaked out, really scared”? Could it be that she now had no control over the situation, Kurt had become a loose cannon and she feared he would proceed with signing his will? Once this was signed, Courtney would lose her money and power. 

Courtney apparently did not visit, but she called the rehab center thirteen times from her room at the Peninsula, the last time being around 6PM. She later said she spoke to Kurt on the phone only once. An hour after that last call, Kurt told an Exodus staff member he wanted to go outside for a cigarette. Without explanation, Kurt climbed over a small wall outside and fled the rehab center. At 8:47PM, he called the Peninsula Hotel to leave a message for Courtney. The message from the hotel log reads: “Elizabeth’s phone number is (213) ___-____.” Tom Grant has the full number in his case file.

Courtney never mentioned this message to the media. It doesn’t appear to be from someone who is “suicidal.” Kurt then went to the airport where he bought a flight back to Seattle with his credit card. He reportedly signed autographs at a ticket counter before boarding the 10:20 p.m. Delta Airlines flight to Seattle.

 
Saturday, April 2nd

Kurt arrived back in Seattle at appx 12:45 a.m. Linda Walker of Seattle Limousines saw Kurt speaking normally to other passengers and he approached her with a “thin smile” (Sanford, Christopher Kurt Cobain 1996) 

She then drove Kurt back to his house at 171 Lake Washington Blvd, arriving in the early morning. His appearance at the house surprised and concerned Michael “Cali” DeWitt (Seattle Times - May 11, 1994) Cali said Kurt entered his bedroom and they had a short conversation.

In Charles Cross’ Fairy-tale book Heavier Than Heaven, it is reported that: Kurt walked into Cali’s room and sat on the end of the bed. Jessica [Cali’s girlfriend] woke, but not Cali…Cali momentarily woke up and, seeing Kurt, told him to call Courtney. As Cali fell back asleep, Jessica and Kurt sat silently for a few minutes, watching MTV…” (I HATE THIS MOCKERY BOOK, my personal opinion. if you liked it good for you but its doesn’t make any sense and is filled with information straight from Courtney’s mouth. It should say Written by Cross & Love)

At 7:30 a.m., a driver for Gray Top Taxi picked up Kurt from his home. Taxi supervisor Paul Szaly  told the Seattle police on 19 April 1994: “The driver picked up a person who he thought DID NOT match with the residence. He drove around looking for a place to buy bullets, but was unable to find one. This male told the driver that he recently been burgled and needed bullets. At 8.30am the driver dropped the man off in the area of 145th and Aurora because he said he was hungry and wanted to get something to eat. The man’s fare was $27” (Seattle police report). A receipt for the ammunition was later found at the house. 

After Kurt’s death, one of his two cars was discovered in the driveway of his house with 4 flat tires. why didn’t they investigate this? Surely, the fact that all 4 tires were flat was suspicious. 

The police were said by Melody Maker (written by a friend of Courtney’s) to have had their last contact with Kurt on April 2nd, but a report of that incident was not among files supplied to the magazine. If this is correct, then the Seattle police are withholding an incident report for April 2nd. This may be a where Kurt contacted them complaining his car had been vandalized (tires were flat) and that he believed there were prowlers or burglars. (the very same ones that he told the taxi driver about that morning). The fact that the police have not made this report available indicates that Kurt filed a complaint in which he expressed concern over a personal safety matter. Could the since murdered Det. Terry have been involved with this? (Melody Maker - April 16, 1994)

That night, Courtney had a friend plant a phony story with the Associated Press that she had overdosed and was in the hospital (this fake report becomes significant later on)

Sunday, April 3rd

Courtney Love must rue the day she hired Tom Grant. On Easter Sunday, she picked the private investigator’s name and number from the LA Yellow Pages and called his firm in Beverly Hills (High Times - April ‘96 - Steve Bloom and Tim Kenneally & Shift Magazine Sep 1997 - whats love got to do with it?) 

She said somebody was using her husband’s credit card and she wanted Tom to find out who it was. He initially thought little of the assignment. “I knew vaguely who Nirvana was.” said the P.I in High Times - April ‘96  ”Then, when I met her at the hotel, she changed that immediately to, “It’s not someone else using his card, it’s him, and I’m trying to locate him.” It just kind of spread from there”

Courtney had Tom sub-contract with Ernest ‘Ernie’ Barth, a Seattle P.I., to watch a drug dealer’s apartment (Caitlin Moore’s residence - 25, pg.326) and other locations, in case Kurt showed up. She did not ask to have the Lake Washington house checked - the one place Kurt had actually been seen. Given Tom’s assertion that Kurt died late Sunday or early Monday morning, this omission may have caused a fatal “and possibly deliberate delay in his investigation. (High Times - April ‘96)  

Courtney often said she thought Kurt was with “Caitlin” before he died. Catlin Moore was the drug dealer living in Seattle’s Capitol Hill area. Since there was surveillance of Caitlin’s apartment filming nearly everyone coming and going, it seems odd Courtney never asked for these video tapes. Ernie Barth also took the initiative to set up surveillance on the Lake Washington house. Unfortunately, Grant informed Courtney about this (a Good P.I. should keep contact with his client), and she ordered it to be removed on April 7th.

Tom and his associate, met her at the Peninsula Hotel. “If you leak this to the press I’ll sue the fuck out of you,” she warned, as the two investigators walked in the room. No Courtney that’s you’re job right? Courtney said her husband was Kurt Cobain and that he had recently fled a drug rehab. She said she lied to the bank and had his credit card cancelled. She wanted Tom to call the credit company and track the attempted activities on the card. Tom couldn’t understand why she didn’t do it herself, advising that if he contacted the bank, she would be charged $50 just for a phone call. Courtney responded sarcastically, ”What? That’s not enough money for you?”

She told them Kurt had only one credit card and that without it he had no access to money. She went on to say Kurt had no friends or anyone else who would loan him a few dollars. Tom and Ben questioned her more on Kurt’s inability to get money. “This guy can’t even catch a fucking cab by himself!” she insisted She also told them about the story she planted with the Associated Press the day before, claiming it was to scare Kurt and get his attention, so he would contact her. Later in the afternoon, she went into an angry rage about the “9 1/2 million dollars” Kurt was turning down. She said, “If he doesn’t want the money he ought to do it for his child, for Frances.”

Courtney said that she would play the Lollapalooza tour and Saturday Night Liveif he didn’t want to. She also spoke about Kurt wanting a divorce and of a pre-nuptial agreement that was signed. “My name’s on all the houses and assets,” she added. Courtney claimed she didn’t know where Kurt was and that he might have gone to Seattle or flown out east with Michael Stipe. She initially failed to mention that Kurt was seen at their Lake Washington home the previous morning by Michael “Cali” DeWitt. Cali says he informed Courtney on Saturday that Kurt was there. 

On Sunday, April 3, Cobain, or someone else with access to his credit-card number, attempted several charges. Bank records show that a $1,100 charge was denied mid-afternoon, followed by a series of rejected attempts ranging from $2,500 to $5,000, apparently to try to get cash. On Monday morning, April 4, there were two unsuccessful attempts to get $86.60 worth of flowers. (Seattle Times - May 11, 1994) This abrupt change in credit card attempts is another indication that Kurt died Monday morning. Whoever tried to buy these flowers may have wanted to put them at the crime scene: it would look more like a suicide

The Following image is directly from  http://www.cobaincase.com/events.htm For more information concerning later dates please click the aforementioned link! 

small exception of an Audio recording, between Tom & Courtney BEFore Kurt was found. There’s talking about a story Courtney help spread with the AP, she told Tom that this was her way of trying to get Kurt to “contact her” she want him to worry. which is odd seeing how Kurt left contact information at the hotel Courtney was staying at
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y_ziFE1aYZ0 
the recording in this Youtube video is entitled  BEF171g  via  http://www.cobaincase.com/audio.htm 
it is the final sixth part of a set of recordings where Courtney is talking about this April fools trick she played on Kurt after he left rehab. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&feature=endscreen&v=6kuDOtWb9P4 
0:28 seconds in this collaboration of tom’s recordings is the first ‘set of six’ (because it is a set of recordings & tumblr only allows you to upload one audio file per day this post is hard but not impossible) i really wish i could just upload my audio CD that’s provided in http://www.cobaincase.com/manual.htm hearing Courtney’s voice is crucial. but i’m sure from the clips posted you get the picture on how concern she was for her “missing” Husband 

For more recordings please visit http://www.cobaincase.com/audio.htm below is some images from Cobaincase.com Tom describing what’s happening in the ‘set of six’ recordings.


these do not seem to be the topics a concerned wife should be saying to the private investigator SHE HIRED to find her “missing” husband. To listen farther please visit the site for this and more… ALL TRUE EVENTS that happened BEFORE & AFTER the tragic day we learned that Kurt was found dead     

Thursday-Friday, March 31/April 1st
At the Exodus clinic, Cobain was visited by his daughter, Frances Bean Cobain, and one of the nannies Jackie Farry. It would be the child’s last visit with her father

On April 1st, Kurt received a visit from Joe Mama at Exodus rehab, Joe said, “I was ready to see him look like nuts and depressed. He looked fucking great!” He went on to say: “After Kurt left I was on the phone to Courtney all the time. She was really freaked out, so we drove around looking for him at all the places he might have gone. She was really scared from the beginning. I guess she could tell.” (Rolling Stone editors. Cobain) 
  

If Kurt looked so great, surely Joe would have conveyed this to Courtney. Why then was she so “freaked out, really scared”? Could it be that she now had no control over the situation, Kurt had become a loose cannon and she feared he would proceed with signing his will? Once this was signed, Courtney would lose her money and power. She apparently did not visit, but she called the rehab center thirteen times from her room at the Peninsula, the last time being around 6PM. She later said she spoke to Kurt on the phone only once. An hour after that last call, Kurt told an Exodus staff member he wanted to go outside for a cigarette. Without explanation, Kurt climbed over a small wall outside and fled the rehab center. At 8:47PM, he called the Peninsula Hotel to leave a message for Courtney. The message from the hotel log reads: “Elizabeth’s phone number is (213) ___-____.” Tom Grant has the full number in his case file. Courtney never mentioned this message to the media. It doesn’t appear to be from someone who is “suicidal.” Kurt then went to the airport where he bought a flight back to Seattle with his credit card. He reportedly signed autographs at a ticket counter before boarding the 10:20 p.m. Delta Airlines flight to Seattle. 

FOR EVEN MORE EVIDENCE please obtain a copy of the Cobain Case Study Manual http://www.cobaincase.com/manual.htm this book is a tool not only to learn about the case but to help you help yourself answer questions your friends or co-workers may ask concerning the death of Kurt Cobain. it says so much about what really happened in Kurt’s Last Days… see for yourself! 
 

Many weeks after Cobain’s death, Tom finally received copies of the police reports. The documents reveal Kurt’s shotgun (Remington M-11, 20 Gauge, Semi Automatic) had been fully loaded with three shells when he died. Tom Grant began to ask himself “If he bought this shotgun just to kill himself, what was he going to do with the other two rounds? after farther investigation Tom realized that Kurt had that shotgun loaded for protection, not for suicide. 

The reports go on to state the shotgun was inverted. There is a picture that Kurt had previously taken with his band mates where he was goofing off with a toy rifle. The photo shows how Kurt would hold a rifle if he were to put it in his mouth. The toy rifle in the photo was also inverted with Kurt’s right hand at the trigger! Courtney had a copy of this photograph prior to Kurt’s death. She passed the cropped version (meaning Just Kurt) on to gullible reporters hoping it would graphically illustrate her husband’s so-called “suicidal mind-set.” The photo appeared in several magazines soon after Cobain’s death 

Page Four of the police reports indicate there were “puncture marks” on the inside of both Cobain’s left and right elbows. This indicates drugs were administered by at least two separate injections. Kurt’s heroin blood level was 1.52 mg/liter. This requires a minimum injection of 225mg of heroin which is three times the lethal dose, even for a hardcore addict. Kurt would have been immediately incapacitated, leaving him unable to pick up the shotgun or pull the trigger. He didn’t even need to use the shotgun: the overdose would have killed him almost instantly. Diazepam was also found in his system

The reports also confirm that Kurt did not leave his driver’s license out so hisbody could be identified, as reported by the misinformed media. His I.D. had been removed and placed in front of his wallet for a photograph by the first officer on the scene. The officer took 23 Polaroids at the scene - so the police did have photos they could have shown to Tom! In studying these reports, Tom found many other instances where misleading information was given to the police, to himself, and to the press. 

PR1 MISSING PERSON REPORT Dated 4/4/94 #94-1 49669
”Mr. Cobain ran away from California facility and flew back to Seattle. He also bought a shotgun and may be suicidal. Mr. Cobain may be at =====, location for narcotics. Det. Terry SPD/Narcotics has further info.” 

There was no mention in this report that Kurt had last been seen at the Lake Washington residence. The narrative sounds like Cobain left the rehab, then purchased a shotgun and might kill himself. Kurt actually purchased the shotgun for his own protection before he left for the rehab in L.A. This report set the police up for what they would later observe. A body, a shotgun, and a note. This may indicate Courtney already knew he was dead, and by what method. Later after Kurt’s body was discovered the coroner reported that TOD (Time Of Death) was on April 5th but they gave a margin of error of “more than 24 hours,” It is also suspicious that Courtney filed the report pretending to be Kurt’s mother. 

(below copy of  STATEMENT OF OFFICER LEVANDOWSKI #5326 the first officer to respond to the call)


PR8 STATEMENT OF OFFICER LEVANDOWSKI #5326
Report #94-1 56500

On 4/08/94 at about 840 hrs, ===== arrived at 171 Lk. WA. Blvd. E. to perform some electrical work. ===== walked onto the west facing deck of the garage, and observed the victim through the window panes in the French door. The victim was laying on the floor, with a shotgun across his body, and a visible head wound. C/called 911, and a dual response of SFD and SPD was dispatched. On arrival, Levandowski observed the victim laying on the floor, unmoving. The French doors were locked. SFD Engine #34 responded, and made entry by breaking one of the glass panes in the French door… Photographs were taken of the scene by Levandowski, Fewel and Sgt. Getchman. The scene was maintained until released to Homicide Detectives. All pictures and film were released to Det. Yoshida… (Now look what follows)… Levandowski observed that the French doors at the opposite end of the room were blocked by a stool, preventing access 


Kirkland & Yoshida’s 16 paged follow up report appears to be a summary of the original report written by Levandowski, Only in their report Certain misinformation was added making suicide appear to be more likely (i’m not going to post the 16 page reports to conserve space but i will post some) For example on Levandowski’s reports he entitled the indecent as a “Death investigation” but in the follow up report the verdict was quickly changed the SAME DAY

Then the last line of levandowski’s report is clearly out of context. The report appears to have ended, could the last line in the incident report been added after the follow up report was created? These doors (at the opposite end of the room), were unlocked and led out to a balcony, from which there is no stairway or access.


Furthermore, the wooden stool that Sgt. Cameron and the report claim was ”wedged” against the entrance doors was too small and light to block any potential intruder, including a tiny child! The detectives already told the media and
Tom that there was a stool wedged against the door, but it was actually just sitting in front of the unlocked balcony doors on the other side of the room.

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The actual entrance door to the greenhouse had a push and twist lock: anyone could have locked it and pulled it shut as they left 
 
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Kurt was NOT barricaded in the room as the police had indicated. Someone in the Seattle Police Department must have noticed the first police reports did not reflect the “official myth.” It appears this line was added to the report to deliberately deceive the public. Anyone who wasn’t there would never know the difference. So who wrote the line?  could another officer added the line without Levandowski’s knowledge, or someone ‘suggested” Levandowski add the line after the report was submitted for approval. 

Not only were there errors in the “follow-up reports” but also in the MAJOR INVESTIGATION SUMMARY

PR9 MAJOR INVESTIGATION SUMMARY Homicide Unit - Report # 94-1 56500 Scene Detectives: Jim Yoshida & Steve Kirkland - Paragraph 2: “There were marks on Cobain’s hands consistent with the firing of this weapon.” 

 Tom has stated with complete confidence that there were no marks on Kurt’s hands that would indicate he fired this weapon. Tom had the police reports analyzed by other homicide detectives and criminalists. No one can figure out what these “marks” could have been. The shotgun model is somewhat rare but Tom located an identical weapon in Northern California and personally fired the shotgun 18 times without cleaning his hands. There were no visible marks or scratches on either of Tom’s hands that resulted from the firing of this weapon. Additional evidence that he has obtained regarding these so-called “marks” cannot be disclosed until the case is reopened.

However In Februrary 1997, however, Sgt. Cameron finally admitted to P.O.V. Magazine that he was unaware of any “marks” on Kurt’s hands that would indicate he fired the weapon. Cameron said he didn’t know who put that statement in the report and that, “It must have been added by some rookie.” 
”‘We went 2 some pretty remarkable ends 2 come 2 this conclusion, 2 eliminate any questions in the future,” Cameron said in Seattle Times, 05/15/94
Sergeant Donald Cameron (10/26/1935 - 04/26/2007) He was retired in 1999 amid a cloud of scandal. BIH

PR1O The Fingerprint Analysis Report
“The above item was processed for prints on 05/06/94 by Sr. ID Technician T. Geranimo, #4466. Four cards of latent prints were lifted. The four cards of lifted latent prints contain no legible prints.” 

The shotgun wasn’t checked for prints until nearly a month after Kurt’s body was found. Tom’s firm learned that the shell casings and the pen found at the scene weren’t even checked for prints until nearly three years later, when a television show about Kurt’s death was about to air! Did the police really investigate his death or were they just going through the motions for the media? How could he have handled the shotgun before he left for rehab and after he returned to Seattle without leaving one legible finger print? I know Kurt Cobain was a genius & everything… BUT THERE IS NO WAY Kurt could of had time to write the ‘suicide’ note (illogically it must have been written before hand) then inject three times the lethal dose of heroin in his system, Rolled down his sleeve’s, Neatly put away his drug paraphernalia, grab the gun from the closet it was stored in & shoot the gun  then Wipe his prints off everything he just touched! ABSOLUTELY MAKES NO SENSE!   

PR11 Follow-up report. Incident #94-156500, Unit file #94-117
NARRATIVE: Detectives Steve Kirkland and Jim Yoshida 4113/94 0900:
(To the SPD Evidence Unit). “Checked Cobain’s wallet. There is no SeaFirst card with the above listed number in the wallet. There are two Sea First Versateller cards with different numbers in the wallet.” 

There was also $120 in cash on the floor, and $63 cash in Kurt’s coat pocket. But what happened to Kurt’s other SeaFirst Card? The bank records show that someone was still trying to use this “missing” card after the time the Coroner says Kurt died, but stopped these attempts when the body was discovered.

The police have never bothered to clear this up… yet the case is now closed! Whenever someone says, “There’s no proof this was a murder,” just remember: there has never been any forensic evidence proving Kurt’s death was a suicide. The verdict was a rush to judgement which put Seattle Police in an uncomfortable position as copy-cat suicides began to occur. 

 
all this (unless stated otherwise) information & more can be found in http://www.cobaincase.com/manual.htm It’s & excellent read! not only Cobain fans will enjoy but anyone interested in TRUE CRIME or Criminology! I’ve learned a lot! Thank you TOM GRANT for your never ending devotion & for every sacrifice you made for the @cobaincase - Hopefully many more will see your work & this case get re-opened. Kurt Cobain was an amazing person & deserves a proper investigation so he can finally rest in peace bring closure to many in & surrounding this case. 

In the summer of 1993, Kurt experienced what he called “a miracle”. After years of consulting specialists about his debilitating stomach pain, he found a doctor who finally diagnosed the problem - a pinched nerve relating to his scoliosis. Once the problem was diagnosed, it became treatable and Kurt finally rid himself of his daily agony. From this point on, many people detected a change in Kurt’s personality. His closest friend, Dylan Carlson, said, “Kurt became a new person after that. He stopped retreating into the dark side that everybody came to associate with him and actually seemed cheerful. Part of it was Frances, I think, but the stomach thing was the most important” (who killed Kurt Cobain pg.86) Kurt Cobain lived for twenty-seven years, some of which were blighted by excruciating stomach pains, but he managed to get treatment for that problem. He survived. ( Barnett, Frances. The Rome Incident)

 
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Referring to the days prior to Kurt Cobain’s death, Courtney later told the media, ”Everybody knew he was going to die!” (Cobain Case Study manual pg.18) She wanted people to believe Kurt had an out-of-control drug dependency during the last days of his life. (Barnett, Frances. Kurt Was Not Suicidal) Of all the phony stories concocted and spread by Courtney Love, this particular lie blinded the eyes of the authorities, the media, and most of the public. It helped make Courtney Love a very rich widow. Let’s see what Kurt, and those close to him, had to say about these so-called “suicidal tendencies” during the days, weeks and months leading up to his untimely death. (Cobain case Study manual , pg.68)

 
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“I’ve been asked repeatedly if Kurt was on drugs while I was there [during sessions for the In Utero album]. And I’ve been around people who use dope a lot, and on the one hand I know how they behave and on the other I know how deceptive they can be. And my best estimate was that, no, he wasn’t, he was being very productive. That was a period of his life where he was very focused. He was focused on making this record and he didn’t want to let the other guys down. He was committed to the task. He was as sober — and I use that adjective to mean serious — as anybody I’ve ever worked with in the studio.” [Mojo, May 2001] 

“If Kurt was using heroin while he was around me, he hid it well. In Seattle last summer (of 1993) he was alert and happy…” (Gavin Edwards, June 1994 edition of Details magazine). 

“After trying everything for his stomach from pills to a vegetarian diet to a chanting regime, Kurt is ecstatic to have found a doctor who’s prescribing him an experimental gastrointestinal medicine that works. He says he doesn’t want to give the name because the medicine hasn’t actually been approved by the FDA, but it’s reduced his stomach episodes almost as effectively as heroin. ‘But now if I take heroin it makes me vomit right away, so that doesn’t do any good’.” (Details, November 1993. This interview dates to July 1993.) 

Kurt Also Mentions this pill in one of my ALL TIME FAVORITE INTERVIEWS  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BCbtRMz0ADY&feature=related during 6:41 of this 12-13-1993 interview from Seattle he also mentions  ”i WAS in pain for so long, i didn’t care that i WAS in the band, i didn’t care if i WAS alive, you know & it just so happened that i came to that conclusion at a time when my band became really popular ya know, i mean it had been going on & building up for so many years that i WAS suicidal” notice that talk was all pas tense? anything you can find out on this interview do so! it was released  MTV promoting “With The Lights Out box set” and the MTV special Nirvana: past, present and future. 

& It’s Also mentioned in his Journal’s this is where Kurt Gives the name of the drug he finally found and other drugs he tried to help with his stomach pains & his experience Pg. 198 Kurt was looking to Kick self medicating on Heroin & was looking for prescribed alliterative measures  

READ THE ENTIRE PAGE! Kurt Cobain is..was a very descriptive & Sarcastic individual. “It acts as an opiate but it doesn’t get you high, i’ve been on an increasingly smaller dose of it for nine months and i haven’t had a single episode since ”  (Kurt, Pg 198 Journals)

“I never went out of my way to say anything about my drug use. I didn’t want some 15-year-old kid who likes our band to think it’s cool to do heroin. I think people who glamorize drugs are fucking not very nice people and if there’s a hell, they’ll go there”. (Kurt, Melody Maker’s Aug 28 1993 edition).

“I’m not in anyway afraid of death…I’m afraid of dying now, I don’t want to leave behind my wife and child, so I don’t do things that would jeopardise my life. I try to do as little things as I can to jeopardize it. I don’t want to die”. (Kurt, The Face, Sept 1993 edition)  


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Kurt & Frances October 1993 

“He [Kurt] was very open, very honest and seemingly very happy. He also seemed clean. I know it seems strange in the light of Kurt’s Rome overdose and I even asked photographer Mark Leialoha if he thought the same. He agreed that Kurt seemed happier and cleaner than we’d seen him or known him to be.” said Steffan Chirazi, commenting on his meeting with Kurt at the Omni Arena, Atlanta, November 1993 (Kerrang’s April 23 1994 edition).

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“Kurt did not seem even mildly depressed, let alone suicidal…The whole evening in Atlanta turned out to be one of the best nights of the year; a great show, a relaxed post-gig atmosphere, no bullnuts, just a good vibe.”  Steffan Chirazi interviewed Kurt in November 1993, resulting in an article published in Kerrang’s December 11 1993 edition.

 Chirazi reported that at Nirvana’s November 1993 gig at the Omni Arena in Atlanta he met Kurt backstage: ‘Frances Bean is wandering the premises with a beaming smile for everyone. Soon Kurt will lovingly, patiently feed her some macaroni cheese dinner for a late night snack, before cuddling her and talking quietly in her ear….”I’m not going to say a damn word about it being tough; I’m having the best time of my life!” laughs Cobain…’ 


Kurt & Frances October 1993   Shared by @chelle_anne80 


 “It has been a year, almost to the day, since I interviewed Kurt. At the time, he told me he was happier than he had ever been. And frankly, I believed him.” David Fricke, Rolling Stone’s December 14 1994 edition.

 
Kurt Cobain on February 14, 1994. shared by blandest_99 

Singer, Pete Shelley, whose band The Buzzcocks opened some of the early dates on Nirvana’s 1994 European tour, said that, contrary to rumours, Cobain had appeared to be in good health and reasonably high spirits. “On the first date in Lisbon, he came into the dressing room and started chatting. If anything, while the rest of us were getting into all sorts of debauchery, he would just wish us a good night and go off for an early night,” Pete remarked.(Nevermind the Barbituates, Mick Wall) “He seemed really clean when we were on tour. In some ways it was a bit awkward because he wasn’t really joining in the very mild debauchery that went on.” (Melody Maker - April 16, 1994) 

In an interview with Kurt published January, 1994 in Rolling Stone, David Fricke asks, “One of the songs that you cut from ‘In Utero’ at the last minute was ‘I Hate Myself And Want To Die.’ How literally did you mean it?”  Kurt answers: “As literal as a joke can be. Nothing more than a joke. And that has to do with why we took it off. We knew people wouldn’t get it; they’d take it too seriously. It was totally satirical, making fun of ourselves. I’m thought of as this pissy, complaining, freaked-out schizophrenic who wants to kill himself all the time. ‘He isn’t satisfied with anything.’ And I thought it was a funny title. I wanted it to be the title of the album for a long time. But I knew the majority of the people wouldn’t understand it.” In this interview, it is evident that Kurt was concerned about his fans getting the wrong impression from such a provocative title.


In the March 12th edition of Melody Maker, Everett True commented on Kurt’s drug an alcohol consumption as follows: “Although it’s no secret that in the past KurtCobain has taken drugs, sometimes to excess, the last time we met (in Seattle, last December -1993), he seemed completely “clean”. That is, he was clean, optimistic and happier than he’d been for years….I knew that he’d cut down on his drug taking for a while….He hadn’t taken alcohol in any serious quantity for several years, that’s for sure.”  

 

Bassist Tony Barber told Melody Maker, “I know he was not taking drugs on that tour. He was walking around drinking Evian water and looking clean every time I saw him. He didn’t seem to consider himself a star…He seemed like a shy bloke who didn’t have many friends. Often when I was talking to him, I felt like saying something like, ‘Look, if you need a mate just to go for a drink with or anything, I’m here.’ And then I came home last night and saw it on the news. I couldn’t believe it. It’s just so sad.” (Melody Maker - April 16, 1994)

 
 ”When he talked to me he seemed to be happy,” said Kurt’s grandmother Iris Cobain (rest In Peace), remembering a phone conversation she had with him 2 weeks before his death. In this call, Kurt arranged to go fishing with his grandfather the following week. (Who Killed Kurt Cobain? pg.91). 

 

In a September 1996 edition of Photostory (French publication) Kurt’s photographer friend, Youri Lenquette explains how he showed Kurt his pictures of Cambodia. Kurt became interested and Lenquette asked if he would like to go to Cambodia when the In Utero European tour of Feb/March 1994 ended. Kurt was very enthusiastic and asked Lenquette how he could go about getting a visa. Youri said that people shouldn’t believe Kurt was always sad, because he had a lot of humour and never mentioned suicide to Youri.

A doctor who treated Kurt in Rome said, “The last image I have of him, which in the light of the tragedy now seems pathetic, is of a young man playing with the little girl (Frances). He did not seem like a young man who wanted to end it all.” (Cobain Case Study Manual pg.75). more information on the Rome incident, will be in a future post!

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Charles Peterson, a photographer and associate of Kurt, was quoted in an interview about Nirvana’s Smells Like Teen Spirit music video. “What sticks in my mind is actually running into him on the street about 2 weeks um, before he, he killed himself. And it was just, you know, I guess in relation to events, I’m glad that I did, I’m glad that I saw him. We talked and he, we exchanged phone numbers and he was really happy about the fact the book, my book of photographs that I’m doing, he was like; ‘Alright, at last,’ you know, ‘get the real thing.’ And he was—we chatted and he was concerned about my wife’s illness and just really, you know, that sticks in my mind.” (‘Nirvana, Teen Spirit, A Tribute to Kurt Cobain’ Video)


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Dylan Carlson, Kurt’s closest friend, told Private Investigator Tom Grant that Kurt was not suicidal. He also told a reporter for the Seattle Times the same thing. (Cobain Case Study Manual pg.68/7) “Kurt was facing lots of pretty heavy things but he was actually pretty upbeat. He was prepared to deal with things facing him.” (Seattle Post Intelligencer - April 15, 1994). “At the time (we went to buy the gun, 30 March 1994), Kurt definitely wasn’t suicidal or I would never have bought the gun. He was my best friend. I would have known if Rome was a suicide. No way. A year earlier I would have believed it because of the pain, but he wasn’t talking like that anymore. He was making all kinds of plans for when he got back from rehab.” (Who Killed Kurt Cobain, pg.91).
 
 
 Kurt spent two days at the Exodus rehab clinic in Los Angeles. He talked to several psychologists there, none of whom considered him suicidal. Joe Mama visited Kurt at the clinic on April 1, 1994, He said, “I was ready to see him looking like shit and depressed. He looked so fucking great.” (Rolling Stone editors. Cobain, pg.83/also see Rossi’s Queen of Noise pg.193). Others who saw and spoke to Kurt at the rehab center in Los Angeles and at the airport shortly before his death said he was upbeat, friendly and didn’t appear to be depressed at all. (Cobain Case Manual, pg.68)
 
 

Tom Grant spent some time with Mark Lanegan, another of Kurt’s good friends. Mark was helping Tom and Dylan look for Kurt before his body was discovered. Mark didn’t think Kurt was suicidal either, and after Cobain’s death, he told a writer for Rolling Stone Magazine, “I never knew Kurt to be suicidal. I just knew that he was going through a really tough time.” (Cobain case study manual, pg.68/Rolling Stone editors. Cobain, pg.90).

 

After Kurt’s body was found, Krist Novoselic (the bassist for Nirvana) responded to the news of the supposed suicide by saying, “Smack was just a small part of his life.” Krist lamented that he did not understand his friend’s behavior. “I don’t have it all figured out right now,” he said. (Seattle Post Intelligencer - April 14, 1994) Those aren’t the reactions one would expect if Krist knew Kurt was suicidal, drug dependent, or planning to kill himself. (Barnett, Frances. Kurt Was Not Suicidal) 

 
 ”The thing you have to remember about all the talk of Kurt being suicidal is that all the talk only started when Courtney came out after the death and said Rome was a suicide attempt and the media picked up on all her examples of Kurt being suicidal. That’s when all these people started saying,‘Of course he was suicidal, just listen to his music.’ But that’s a bunch of crap. Sure he was a moody guy and got depressed quite often. That applies to a hell of a lot of people, including me. But nobody ever talked about Kurt being suicidal before he died, Nobody. Why do you think everybody who knew him was so surprised when Courtney said that Rome was a suicide attempt?. I’ve read all this ignorant bullshit in the media pointing to the fact that Kurt wanted to call In Utero ‘I Hate Myself and I Want to Die.’ It was a joke, for chrissake. That was his warped sense of humour. He was the most sarcastic guy you’ll ever meet. He was not suicidal, at least not when I knew him, and I knew him for the last year of his life.” - Peter Cleary, a friend of Kurt’s from Seattle (Who Killed Kurt Cobain? , pg.92).  

 

“To my knowledge I never saw him high. The three or four times I had long conversations with Kurt he seemed the most sober person on earth.” (Peter Buck, NME’s September 24 1994 edition). Even Courtney had to admit “Kurt was no where near the junkie people paint him as”. (Courtney, Vox’s Feb 1997 edition)